New Blog Skin

Yay! New blog skin took time out from work. Feeling a little under the weather *cough**cough*
Actually I'm super tired ! My visions are blurry, my body is aching. Imagine working from Tuesday all the way to Sunday and if I were to work today I think I will go insane.

So with this free time in hand I revamp the blog skin to make it more personal because all the time I have been taking others. Well tell me what u think ya. I like it simple not complicated like me :)

Suddenly I miss this particular day :/

I can't write everything here but I need to let it out.
I am afraid people might read and think what the hell?
I MUST not be selfish.
I can't be selfish. I hate being selfish. I love ppl too much, I am afraid they will show the slightest sign of hate towards me.
Oh Allah What AM I to do?

To try or not to try? Man I'm confused again :P Many things have happened in the past weeks k I think Im being unfair so here are the pics of my outings! Have been having a few conflicts with my supervisor lately. Bleaaahh whatever I am leaving soon.

Night outing with my SP darlings on Siti's Ride


Eating our hearts out at Ramen Ten

Feets Sore walking around in Town :)
I L.O.V.E yall soooo looking forward to New Year's Eve. Meanwhile Merry X'mas darlings.

Darla signing out.

Hey people.
Many2 things have been happening lately. I think I have found my direction please pray for me people so I can achieve what I need to prove my dad wrong. To my darling and sweetheart Sakinah, Adila & Fatimah. Thanks for the support. You've been my support from the time I was mentally ill till now that I'm better but kind of troubled. Thank you for making me strong.

' Ya Allah segala ujian mu dapat kan lah aku hdapi dengan penuh tabah dan penuh yakin akan pertolongan yang kamu kan beri'

I sayang all of u see u on new year's eve :)

Afraid.

Man.what am I gonna do? I really don't know.... Super confused. Ya Allah guide me =/

Stand Still Look Pretty


Hey I haven't update this for SOOOOO long. Well my job is great I am still doing part time. I have the best supervisor,seriously, alhamdulillah. He is soo nice. He has been a good listening ear and been a good friend to me though its only been 2 weeks knowing him. Well all I can say is I AM FREE NOW!

Finally I let everything go. He helped me to let go. I feel so light than I ever did before all the disappoinments,sadness, hatred, misses, the hole in my heart someone left me with built up so much anger or unhappiness I've hid for TOO LONG behind this facade of smiles & laughter. It made me broke down and I had to let it all out and tell my story. It actually make me feel better. I haven't got a listening ear for a long time. Sometimes its just better to tell someone you don't know at all than someone you know too well because you don't want them to see you as weak.

Thank you Sir. You'll NEVER read this but thank you. I can NEVER thank you enough. Even though we spoke for an hour, that one hour helped me a lot. I don't know how to return the favour.

The song stand still look pretty means a lot to me. It speaks my story :)


PS : One thing for sure I still miss and need my girls. I want them to be behind me all the time :)

Hey people,
I finally got a job. Alhamdulillah.

Ya Allah terima kasih kerana memberi aku pekerjaan yang mengizinkan aku untuk lakukan tanggungjawabku sebagai hambamu. Tetapi ya allah berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk sentiasa berpegang teguh padamu dan sentiasa bersujud di jalanmu. Janganlah kau jauh dariku walau sedetik pun kerana aku lemah dan senantiasa perlu pertolonganmu. Dengarlahkan doa ku ini ya allah. maafkan jika aku angkuh, sombong ataupun ingkar akan perintahmu.

By the way this new song on my blog by the way made me cry a lot. Therefore this blog entry in malay. Thank you Allah . Thank you Allah.

Ello darlings...
u can never guess what I am up to lately... hahah I've been working out like usual this is my 2nd day sticking to the taebo cardio workout. well another thing is i have been watching hindi videos on youtube.ahaha. I know hindi and me don't go together but sometimes the songs are just ahhhhh~ Lemme share my 2 fave hindi songs for the moment. Pardon me if they are kinda BASI / OLD










I know LAUGH ALL YOU WANT BUT I LOVE THEM ahahahah

MY WAY TO LOSING WEIGHT .... AGAIN

Hey pals.
Guess what? I've been eating healthy lately. WAY too healthy in fact that I gained some weight back.HORRORS! But hey I am trying to lose it all again. So a few minutes ago i just finished an hour long of cardio workout that worked too well that I am sweating like a horse! So I thought why not I share it with my friends who'd want to lose weight too! So here it is:

PART 1




PART 2



PART 3



PART 4



PART 5


I am gonna stick to this for like a week and I believe I am gonna lose all that weight again plus I must jaga my eating too. Care to join me to a healthy and better looking you? Man! I got to take a bath in awhile. WARNING this is worse than running 6 rounds of stadium. SO GOOD LUCK! Have fun!

Guess what I uploaded today.... My talentime moments. I remember that nite so well. Just keep wishing we all can still hang out together as a group , same place , same time. I love yall. I love y'all and I just hope my wishes come true.
Well enjoy the video and I was like reliving the performance nite.










You may wonder why I put it all on youtube... So that I can never lose it. Wish I could get back to those days.

Salam ppl!
Its been awhile since I've updated. Guess what? I went out with my girls on tuesday nite!!!Even though there were 4 of us we still had fun. Sorry Dila we didn't get to your place and thanks for the birthday message yesterday :) Makin tahun makin sikit orang haizzz sedih sedih maybe next year tinggal 2 orang je. ahah insyaallah bertambah lah ye.

PHOTO OP!!!!!

Introducing the cream ladies And.... the earth friendly green hijabis! ahaha


First up my place as usual...


Our favourite photo op spot @ Aisyah's place. Raya MUST OI!

Arizan's place. His son is super cute. He have a crush on aisyah. ahaha

At Zila's place.

Finally my fave photo op moment of this year's raya... OMG we all look so sweet la!

Hallo teman2 semua. insyaallah kalau tahun depan panjang umur murah rezeki kita akan bertemu lagi. Love you all. Slamat raya maaf zahir dan batin jika ada silap dan salah maaf kn lah ye. Makan minum halal kn ye... sayang korang semua insyaallah ketemu lagi.

Ya Allah terima kasih aku diberi panjang umur. aku dah 20 sekarang aku berdoa agar iman ku bertambah dan amalan ku berlipat ganda amin kuatkan lah aku ya allah :\

PS: THANKS SYAZ AND DINNA FOR THE WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY TODAY HOPEFULLY I DIDN"T BURN A HOLE IN YOUR POCKETS :)

EID MUBARAK EVERYBODY!

Nothing special this year... instead I feel pressured I really hope what I am doing is right. I will follow my heart. Thanks Sakinah for your advise. I can't really put up photos cause most of it is on my digicam AND cos' my lappy is having that trojan horse virus I am not willing to spread the "disease" to my digicam!

But I bluetooth in pics from my phone. Pray for me ppl. Pray that I get my dream job. I have applied up to 4 jobs today .Praying that I get some replies tomorrow. Hopefully an interview or so. AMIN.

My Parents

Sisters & Brothers


Brothers And Sisters

HEY ALL!

I just came back from iftar with my SP Pals. It was fun. I miss all of them. We buka at this "chinese" restaurant at Bugis then they went for sheesha. I didn't try sheesha though. I know what you must be thinking but HEY I don't even like it anyways can't even stand the smell.

Anyways here is a photo of all of them:

SP Pals


The Girls
More Pics next time have to retrieve pics from the rest. I forgot to bring my own digicam sheesh! These are from my handy dandy mobile phone. ahaha. nites! Watch the following advert its SO hilarious and creative. Syaz this is what I was talking about!

Hey i just got to share this with you girls who love make up. I don't like to wear any make up at all BUT this girl just got me interested in it. Maybe I can start wearing eye shadows like her or not! Maybe when it comes to big events... just maybe.Cause I am too lazy. I love this Adele - chasing pavement inspired look she comes up with it is FULL ON GLAMOUR she said it well. cause I love the song. Enjoy!

Hello I think I should share with you all. This song is so inspiring. It is made for Stand up for cancer. Many artists are together in this. The song is great for the ears too and uplifting for the spirits. Enjoy!

Why should I always be your target? Your punching bag?
Why you always make me cry? did I ever made your life difficult?
i don't deserve this from you. i don't know if i can forgive you. i am sorry.

Photos from yesterday Iftar. I had a blast girls too bad many can't make it. U girls are SO funny. I love our secret krumping ...crumping? whatever it is session hhaha it was superbly funny. I love you girls don't leave me. See you girls soon on Hari Raya I hope! Iftar was perfect... I hope Hari Raya moments will be the icing on the cake for this year.

We had lots of food. Thanks for bringing food to my home girls. Aisyah teach me how to make SUSHI! Thanks Sakinah for roti renjis, it was nice. Thanks Dila for cookies and Amy thanks for coming. THanks all for coming.






There are more photos but that's it for now. Tell me, we had fun didn't we? Cause I never laughed so hard in a long time since yesterday.

Thought I should do this though it is an ungodly hour for me and i am soooo tired today haven't had a break BUT I just wanna say thank you girls. Thank you for the great evening!

2nd September 2008 (2nd Ramadhan)

I was unexpectedly .... DISMISSED! I unexpectedly shed tears on the way home I was sad at the thought of never seeing my tots again. seriously upset. I love them a lot. Today was bittersweet. Bitter I got fired. Sweet cause today is Praneeth's birthday and I got to celebrate it with him and the rest of my babies.

I was mad at my employers cause they ask me to send flyers, do work first. I was told to leave when I came back from giving out fliers. That is just rude & ungrateful! I have work my ass off SO HARD and they did this.Did i see this coming? Yes. But NOT today when the day start off happy and NOT so soon. They didn't give me any notice at all and just dismissed me like that with the reason of over staff. They are lying I know. They just can't afford to pay me any more. And IF they were over staff they wouldn't hire one more part timer would they? They are ALWAYS short of staff if you ask me.

Looking and remembering all the things they've given me, memories & gifts makes me even more upset. Well all I can say is goodbye my darlings. Things have been great while they lasted. I never got to say how much I love all of you. I hope you knew.

My last moments of happiness











I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU & I WILL MISS U. U WILL ALL BE REMEMBERED AND FROZE IN MY HEART . Khushi I hope you remember me when you get older, it is so sweet of you wanting to look like me.

Sobs can't believe I am close to tears.

RAMADHAN BULAN YANG SUCI

Selamat menyambut Ramadhan yang suci. Jangan fikir nak raya je... haha well anyways I hope everyone welcome bulan suci ini dengan tangan & hati yang terbuka. By the way I see everyone soon can't wait to buka puasa with every single one of my readers yang di rahmati Allah. Enjoy this song that just became my favourite of the month.

Hey it's been awhile...
Let's talk about the new Britney Spears soon to be hit... 'Break The Ice'
I haven't been hooked to any Britney songs for a few years till came along this new song.
It's catchy I like the rhythm and tune. Well this may just be the moment where Britney may make a big comeback. Well all i got to say is " Welcome back! Like Finally, its about time!"

You people got to watch this video I think i'd give it a PG rating its been awhile since her videos are of that rating. Its sooo not like her. Its anime. She is definitely giving off a totally different vibe now. WATCH HERE!

Part 1. I am panicking , I am frustrated. I'll show you that you're wrong. Very Wrong.

Part 2. I HATE CHANGE!!!!!

Mood : Very frust la!

LMAO. Eating chips & watching "whose line is it anyway?" on YouTube. Enjoy!

Well let's forget about the wedding maybe I will post it next time when it gets really old. Make a rain check on that please. Anyways today 080808!!!! Starting of Olympics! A day before National day! Lets be patriotic. ahahaha. So I requested the kids in school all to wear red or white OR both! They were so cute. We made the flag today upon request of the principal .




9.30 AM class. Anselm blocked his face with a flag and Saneya crying! So hard to get their pics this was the only clear pic I can get!


11.00 AM class. My favourite class! They are super mischievous though. I panicked when Khushi( the girl who's raising her hand) fell on the floor when she bumped into Pranith & Pranav (2 boys who are sitting on chair on the right) She bit her upper lip and there were a lot of blood. Got me very scared. But after awhile everything turns out well. I was like Khushi's mummy holding her like a baby and all. sheesh. Too bad Aqil & Nihar didn't come. I miss them.



12.30 PM class 4 girl friends. Wen Wen didn't come. Miss her tonnes even though she's kind of a brat!

Me and Yati gave the kids tidbits of chocolate and strawberry crackers. Our gifts - my mum's idea though. My mum told me you wouldn't miss them if you quit after December. Thinking of it I will miss them a lot. I love them already like my own children very attached to each one of them. This is when I am in a dilemma.

I suddenly remember Nihar hugging me the other day and saying " I love you ,teacher!" or Pranith kissing my cheek or Saneya only settles down and stop crying if I am there and Chloe tells her grandma how much she likes me and Khushi gave me a tiny tiny flower that is all ready dried up.

I Love All Of You! You Make My Life So Much Funnier & Lighter!

Well happy National Day, everyone.

I might go to sleep thinking about them tonight....what should I do?

PS: HAPPY 20th HAKIM RAHIM!

Sushi Smiles ( Never thought I'd smile this wide again.)

Experienced eating sushi in a Japanese restaurant for the first time with Sakinah on last wednesday. It was hilarious. We were super clueless. Very clueless. We didn't know what to choose either buffet or normal eating ended up with all-u-can eat buffet! I ate soooo much sushi since I've been craving for it for a very long time! The moment I put it into my mouth I was grinning and smiling like a little girl, mad girl.

A few silly things we did:

• We didn't know when we could start eating sushi off the conveyor belt.
  
• We ate with bare hands no chopsticks till I realised the chopsticks were at the side for us.
  

We laughed all the way.



Beancurd that tasted like egg!Recommended by waitress but its my MOST not favourite!




My all time favourite, crab salad sushi!

Sakinah's all time favourite Shrimp roe sushi! She can't get enough of it everything she ordered has the shrimp roe. I laughed at her haha. She's sooo cute & funny.



I had 2 California rolls. dang it I'm feening again!

we tried to eat as much as we could and take lots of things off the conveyor belt! We had NO wastage SOOOO.... We gave ourselves a round of applause. Actually we applaud ourselves 3 times!

The rest of the pics of sheer happiness. enjoy!





Sushi Bites!




My best shopping buddy! Sakinah with the chopstix


Being as kampong as we could! haha . I still wish Adila could have made it but oh wells, we still had fun girl! Man I miss my TLC so badly AND WISH EVERYBODY COULD BUY THE $200 TIX, GATHER AND GO TO SINGFEST TOGETHER ON NEXT SUNDAY, If we could it would be great maybe next year, My Ryan Ross is waiting to serenade me, guess he have to wait till next year.... wahahaha yea right dream on! Next update my cousin's wedding! Toodles~

YES IMMA SHOPPAHOLIC!

Since today's plan to go Little India was cancelled by my lil' sis. Mum suggested me and her to go Compass Point to shop for my shoes for someone's wedding. Shoes I DON'T NEED. Shoes my DAD URGE me TO BUY so I will look great for the wedding. I didn't even want to do shopping with this month's pay BUT I had no choice.

The shoe I bought I LOVE

Good looking shoes right? Bling bling and all!

You know what's so great about this shoe?

IT IS FLAT! YES My dad is sooooo gonna kill me. He warned me about flat shoes. He wants me to wear high heels. I HATE HIGH HEELS!!! So i'm going to prepare my ears for war of words from dad...sheesh. I mean come on I was brought up to act like a boy short hair and all sports haha what u expect?

OHHH AND I BOUGHT A Watch I SO LOVE. Rainbow colour! Because I was VERY fickle minded on what colour to choose. Same goes for the shoes I was so fickle minded that I visit every shop almost twice first Bata then Metro then Charles and Keith and the Sale Section then back to Bata and last Metro. Ok I am lying I only visit Bata and Metro twice. haha

OK imma gonna go and buzz off now.

My Pretty Darling

Reached my 100th post finally:)

Yesterday was superb! Rifqah came. I was super happy miss her soooooooo much! All I could do was hold her the entire time and kiss and kiss and kissed her. Love her sooo much :) It is so fast that its been around one or 2 month since I last took care of her. Now I wish I have my own daughter to love, share, talk, smile and grow up with. sigh...

Me & Me Love

Biscuits!I was showing her how to eat.

Look how fascinated she was by my pose :P

Feeding Time! We had tonnes of fun together . Maybe Nelson was right... I have a potential to be a good mother someday. Ohhh and Rifqah's rockstar big brother, Rifqi came later... he was super cute oh definitely NOT like the father. Their father was telling me that Rifdi was good looking because of him... puh-lease. Rifqah hope to see u soon my baby.