Take My Tortured Heart By The Hand

Yeah you read that right. My tortured heart. Maybe nobody realised that I am having the worse times in life right now... Only Allah knows. Well maybe my smiles & my laughters are what I can standby and hide behind for now. I don't wanna show the cracks that are appearing. I am a great liar...

If you're smart you can see it***.

Call Me A Freak...

I spent hours cleaning up my wardrobe & room. I swear I was just trying to occupy my time & I was bored. So take a look...

My make up section ahaha look what's hanging I call them my HANG bags. I actually also cleaned up the drawers under it where my clutches & belts are.

Look at this haha the one on the left is humaira's & mine's on the right. Humaira's a little messy but you know just need to arrange the clothes that's all. All of those are hers except for the judo outfit! After all the cleaning I went to watch Dr.Seuss a bit than I watched Ricky Martin shake his stuff which made me fell asleep. Let's call it a day~

The Climb Has Been Reached

Alhamdulillah. Thank u Allah my prayers have been answered. Thank you everyone for their prayers & well wishes. I got the job at Yio Chu Kang Primary School.Well this is where my new journey will begin & a new climb to start on. I am a little nervous about it as it is at my own primary school. I'd have prefer at a school where no one knows me but I am VERY thankful that I got the job at all so it does not matter.

A lot of good things have been happening lately. I got the job, the long awaited picnic which have been planned for years finally happened but its sad to think that she wasn't at the picnic with us. I remembered whenever picnic plans were cancelled she got angry but hey don't look back people say but I miss her a lot. The other day I heard the song emotions on the radio it reminded me of her. :( Well one day we will sure meet again my dear. So on a happier note, photos for everyone.



Me & my bestie

Aisyah the photographer

I know this photo is funny... Now here comes the much teased about photo

laugh all you want!

These guys made my day :)

Jordon, Bryan , Danny & Jin Kai. They had to do a super simple presentation today. Watch em! All of them are super cute. My class is too noisy :P

Jordon


Bryan


Jin Kai


Danny


I know that Bryan's the best presenter but I think Jin Kai is sooo cute :)

My Interesting Interview

I went in and there were 3 people waiting to interview me... Scary!

The Climb

Guess what happy to know maybe insyaallah I am almost there.

The Climb By Miley Cyrus. Oh yeah very inspiring lyrics.

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (yeah)

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (yeah yeah ea ea)

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

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Ya Allah aku harus kuat. Aku tak mahu menangis ya allah. Tapi aku tewas pabila aku menghadapmu ya Allah. Sesungguhnya dugaan yang kau beri ini berat malah aku harus fikir bahawa ada insan yang lain yang lebih menderita dariku. Kuatkanlah aku ya Allah, kuatkan imanku untuk menghadap segala cabaran mu ya allah sesungguhnya aku lemah kau bantu aku ya allah. Bantulah aku ya allah sesungguhnya kau tempat memohon & bergantung segala sesuatu.

Outing with...

Fatimah to Causeway Point with my little niece. It was a fine outing, catching up with her. Its been a long time since I last saw her. My niece is coughing now prolly due to the icy cold 100 plus she drank. sheesh. I brought her out to see how it feels to have a toddler. Hmm.. now i'm thinking do I really wanna have a baby? I caught a really cute photo of the both of them.

I call this a lucky shot. So cute together.
Ya Allah please3 dapatkan aku kerja itu amin.

Dinner @ Pastamania

Overall I am quite satisfied. Though some of us did not enjoy their food as it tasted bad. But anyhow we still enjoyed our conversations. Here are the pretty pics.

Sarah & Zila

Jackpot : All 3 wear tudung :D

The Meals

My favorite shot

In the bus going home.
I'm waiting for Sakinah's share of photos :P I enjoyed today thanks girls for making it happen finally.

On another note! Happy Maulidur Rasul!

Busy With Babies

So yesterday they came and left today in the evening. I am very tired. I was thinking wow if I had a baby would it be this exhausting? If it is, I am sooo gonna lose a lot of weight. So here are pics of the babes.

Rifqah & Rifqie

Me with the angel of mine

My mum with my favourite boy
PS: Amy that is the new shirt I bought the black with cherries or berries printed on it. another one is my graphic hijab that is on the hijab blog :P

What Did I do Today? Shoplah!

although I shopped for one clothing item ( have to be very thrifty now!) I am happy. This is what I have to say :
Happy with what I got out of shopping today. When shopping,patience is a virtue :)

Why? Because when you wait and slowly look around you'll find the best things.

PS: Next time I have to shop at a men's store for long t-shirts. Next on my list that I need are SHOES. And to friends, join twitter now. Thank you sooo much ryan ross for making me wanna have a twitter.

After Days Of Sleepless Nights...

I can finally kick back and relax for I am done!!! OK so here are the results of those sleepless days.

These photos are not meant to be together. I drew them separately but man it looks so united.

There are like 3 or 4 more drawings... I will put them up soon :) Hahaha I know this looks cute. Hopefully one day I get the chance to illustrate a storybook for children, that will be a dream come true. Insyaallah .... Well now I have to wait for the KA-CHing. ahahahah alhamdulillah

Illustration In Session

And so I had to help my cousin to do illustrations for 2 Malay folk tales or stories.
Bawang Putih Bawang Merah & Singapura Dilanggar Todak. I have to do the entire story, mind you. So far I did only the cover for both of the stories... I have many more pages to go & all have be done by WEDNESDAY :S Hopefully I can finish them up. And just for your entertainment & also because I'm tired out of my mind. Laugh all you want as I come up with Bahasa rojak storybook covers. haha. Leave comments on the illustrations though.


Bawang white bawang red

Singapura Dilanggar Swordfish
PS: Hahah the titles a joke . To keep me amused :D
2am already got to sleep as tomorrow will be a longer day of illustrating and tutoring...I am mentally tired just by the thought of tomorrow or is it later today.

Worried

I did some reading on abdominal pains. I don't wanna freak out for nothing. I can just pray and hope its minor...please Allah protect me. Hopefully its just gastric pains but sheesh I've been eating like a regular person! I got to get myself to the clinic soon.

Things i want to buy.....

Once i get the "free" money whahaha...

• A new cellphone cover. I dropped my cellphone too much! scratches like everywhere!!!! Lucky didn't crack my camera lens.
• 2 piece of clothing item

The rest will be spent on buying stuff for my online blog shop & bills.

PS: To my dear girlfriend you know who you are. Thanks for going out with me even for awhile just now, just need to talk things out. You take care of yourself, you can do it , I know you can. I am here for you, I'll be behind you 100%. Will definitely help when you need a helping hand. Take care don't stress out too much, I love you too much. I don't mind me being unhappy but I can't bare seeing my bestie sedih. I will always pray for you. Be happy darling:)

By the wayyyyyy....DO Check this Buy U a Drank cover by JMac which is superbbbbb.... Love him. Sorry can't embed it.

How I spent my Valentines?

Woke up early went cycling with Aminah & went madrasah to mosque then home.

Cycling. Well I love it, feel so accomplished. We cycled from Hougang to Khatib & back.



Us at the Jetty @ Lower Seletar Reservoir.

Celebrated Sufi's birthday today together with Hamizan's. Both are born on 14th & 16th Feb respectively. Happy birthday my brothers. insyaallah allah panjangkn umur & murahkn rezki. amin.

Insomnia

I'm tired but i can't sleep......................... But anyways today i went to see Syazzy. I had fun Syazzy just wished we could look around longer like you know what I love to do window shop, talk about life and styles. I hope next month we can go out for Dinna's birthday :) Cann't wait.

I miss TLC sooo much that it hurts.hurts.hurts.


syazzy look so sweet. Hey girl don't worry I'll stand by you... same goes to all my besties :)
PS: Man my eyebags are killing me!

Don't Crack Under Pressure

My mum's quitting her job. I'm getting new students to tutor and I really, really hope I don't crack under pressure...

Life's getting harder each day. allah help me please guide me.

Put all those aside~ I am soooo in love with Jesse Mccartney he is just oh so charming ahahaha.

What am I ever gonna do...

Life is too complicated.
I have to step up my game.
Allah I can only work & pray to you please,please please make it easier on me.