The eldest

It is tough being the eldest.
Especially when it comes to financial issues. You bear most of the cost. I am mentally exhausted trying to save money. Sometimes my money don't feel like it is mine. technically it is not mine. It belongs to Allah. I feel helpless especially when my parents are spendthrifts. Oh Allah please help me. Please let my mum realise that she is not managing her financial well. I feel suffocated ya Allah. Ya Allah bless us with wealth. I want to be able to do more and be more comfortable. It is tough ya allah. This is tough. Make me strong. make me strong. make me strong. That is why Ya Allah I never thought of settling down when there are so many unfinished issues at home.