2nd September 2008 (2nd Ramadhan)

I was unexpectedly .... DISMISSED! I unexpectedly shed tears on the way home I was sad at the thought of never seeing my tots again. seriously upset. I love them a lot. Today was bittersweet. Bitter I got fired. Sweet cause today is Praneeth's birthday and I got to celebrate it with him and the rest of my babies.

I was mad at my employers cause they ask me to send flyers, do work first. I was told to leave when I came back from giving out fliers. That is just rude & ungrateful! I have work my ass off SO HARD and they did this.Did i see this coming? Yes. But NOT today when the day start off happy and NOT so soon. They didn't give me any notice at all and just dismissed me like that with the reason of over staff. They are lying I know. They just can't afford to pay me any more. And IF they were over staff they wouldn't hire one more part timer would they? They are ALWAYS short of staff if you ask me.

Looking and remembering all the things they've given me, memories & gifts makes me even more upset. Well all I can say is goodbye my darlings. Things have been great while they lasted. I never got to say how much I love all of you. I hope you knew.

My last moments of happiness











I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU & I WILL MISS U. U WILL ALL BE REMEMBERED AND FROZE IN MY HEART . Khushi I hope you remember me when you get older, it is so sweet of you wanting to look like me.

Sobs can't believe I am close to tears.

RAMADHAN BULAN YANG SUCI

Selamat menyambut Ramadhan yang suci. Jangan fikir nak raya je... haha well anyways I hope everyone welcome bulan suci ini dengan tangan & hati yang terbuka. By the way I see everyone soon can't wait to buka puasa with every single one of my readers yang di rahmati Allah. Enjoy this song that just became my favourite of the month.

Hey it's been awhile...
Let's talk about the new Britney Spears soon to be hit... 'Break The Ice'
I haven't been hooked to any Britney songs for a few years till came along this new song.
It's catchy I like the rhythm and tune. Well this may just be the moment where Britney may make a big comeback. Well all i got to say is " Welcome back! Like Finally, its about time!"

You people got to watch this video I think i'd give it a PG rating its been awhile since her videos are of that rating. Its sooo not like her. Its anime. She is definitely giving off a totally different vibe now. WATCH HERE!

Part 1. I am panicking , I am frustrated. I'll show you that you're wrong. Very Wrong.

Part 2. I HATE CHANGE!!!!!

Mood : Very frust la!

LMAO. Eating chips & watching "whose line is it anyway?" on YouTube. Enjoy!

Well let's forget about the wedding maybe I will post it next time when it gets really old. Make a rain check on that please. Anyways today 080808!!!! Starting of Olympics! A day before National day! Lets be patriotic. ahahaha. So I requested the kids in school all to wear red or white OR both! They were so cute. We made the flag today upon request of the principal .




9.30 AM class. Anselm blocked his face with a flag and Saneya crying! So hard to get their pics this was the only clear pic I can get!


11.00 AM class. My favourite class! They are super mischievous though. I panicked when Khushi( the girl who's raising her hand) fell on the floor when she bumped into Pranith & Pranav (2 boys who are sitting on chair on the right) She bit her upper lip and there were a lot of blood. Got me very scared. But after awhile everything turns out well. I was like Khushi's mummy holding her like a baby and all. sheesh. Too bad Aqil & Nihar didn't come. I miss them.



12.30 PM class 4 girl friends. Wen Wen didn't come. Miss her tonnes even though she's kind of a brat!

Me and Yati gave the kids tidbits of chocolate and strawberry crackers. Our gifts - my mum's idea though. My mum told me you wouldn't miss them if you quit after December. Thinking of it I will miss them a lot. I love them already like my own children very attached to each one of them. This is when I am in a dilemma.

I suddenly remember Nihar hugging me the other day and saying " I love you ,teacher!" or Pranith kissing my cheek or Saneya only settles down and stop crying if I am there and Chloe tells her grandma how much she likes me and Khushi gave me a tiny tiny flower that is all ready dried up.

I Love All Of You! You Make My Life So Much Funnier & Lighter!

Well happy National Day, everyone.

I might go to sleep thinking about them tonight....what should I do?

PS: HAPPY 20th HAKIM RAHIM!

Sushi Smiles ( Never thought I'd smile this wide again.)

Experienced eating sushi in a Japanese restaurant for the first time with Sakinah on last wednesday. It was hilarious. We were super clueless. Very clueless. We didn't know what to choose either buffet or normal eating ended up with all-u-can eat buffet! I ate soooo much sushi since I've been craving for it for a very long time! The moment I put it into my mouth I was grinning and smiling like a little girl, mad girl.

A few silly things we did:

• We didn't know when we could start eating sushi off the conveyor belt.
  
• We ate with bare hands no chopsticks till I realised the chopsticks were at the side for us.
  

We laughed all the way.



Beancurd that tasted like egg!Recommended by waitress but its my MOST not favourite!




My all time favourite, crab salad sushi!

Sakinah's all time favourite Shrimp roe sushi! She can't get enough of it everything she ordered has the shrimp roe. I laughed at her haha. She's sooo cute & funny.



I had 2 California rolls. dang it I'm feening again!

we tried to eat as much as we could and take lots of things off the conveyor belt! We had NO wastage SOOOO.... We gave ourselves a round of applause. Actually we applaud ourselves 3 times!

The rest of the pics of sheer happiness. enjoy!





Sushi Bites!




My best shopping buddy! Sakinah with the chopstix


Being as kampong as we could! haha . I still wish Adila could have made it but oh wells, we still had fun girl! Man I miss my TLC so badly AND WISH EVERYBODY COULD BUY THE $200 TIX, GATHER AND GO TO SINGFEST TOGETHER ON NEXT SUNDAY, If we could it would be great maybe next year, My Ryan Ross is waiting to serenade me, guess he have to wait till next year.... wahahaha yea right dream on! Next update my cousin's wedding! Toodles~

YES IMMA SHOPPAHOLIC!

Since today's plan to go Little India was cancelled by my lil' sis. Mum suggested me and her to go Compass Point to shop for my shoes for someone's wedding. Shoes I DON'T NEED. Shoes my DAD URGE me TO BUY so I will look great for the wedding. I didn't even want to do shopping with this month's pay BUT I had no choice.

The shoe I bought I LOVE

Good looking shoes right? Bling bling and all!

You know what's so great about this shoe?

IT IS FLAT! YES My dad is sooooo gonna kill me. He warned me about flat shoes. He wants me to wear high heels. I HATE HIGH HEELS!!! So i'm going to prepare my ears for war of words from dad...sheesh. I mean come on I was brought up to act like a boy short hair and all sports haha what u expect?

OHHH AND I BOUGHT A Watch I SO LOVE. Rainbow colour! Because I was VERY fickle minded on what colour to choose. Same goes for the shoes I was so fickle minded that I visit every shop almost twice first Bata then Metro then Charles and Keith and the Sale Section then back to Bata and last Metro. Ok I am lying I only visit Bata and Metro twice. haha

OK imma gonna go and buzz off now.

My Pretty Darling

Reached my 100th post finally:)

Yesterday was superb! Rifqah came. I was super happy miss her soooooooo much! All I could do was hold her the entire time and kiss and kiss and kissed her. Love her sooo much :) It is so fast that its been around one or 2 month since I last took care of her. Now I wish I have my own daughter to love, share, talk, smile and grow up with. sigh...

Me & Me Love

Biscuits!I was showing her how to eat.

Look how fascinated she was by my pose :P

Feeding Time! We had tonnes of fun together . Maybe Nelson was right... I have a potential to be a good mother someday. Ohhh and Rifqah's rockstar big brother, Rifqi came later... he was super cute oh definitely NOT like the father. Their father was telling me that Rifdi was good looking because of him... puh-lease. Rifqah hope to see u soon my baby.

Finally a New Post!

Goodbye to Farah! Oh my gosh I have to teach the play group tomorrow . I can die! Been busy lately doing worksheets for the kids and I have new task to complete. I am also going to be busy if Dinna starts giving me my freelance work / website items to do. Ohhh and I recently started my own little business selling brooches. I haven't fully kick it off to a full start cause I want to make 10 brooches first before publicising. BUT I have 2 orders coming in already. Happy!

Tomorrow I have tuition to teach gosh I am tired...
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I am so proud!

[ Prayer of the day ]
Ya Allah lindunglah aku dari kejahatan dan selamatkanlah aku dari pemikiran yg amat ku takuti dan merbahayakan diriku ini -amin- Kuatkanlah aku ya Allah.

Hey'all!

I am finally here to update things going on down here :) I am actually happy, having this job. It is actually quite a breeze. You know just do all the admin things, a bit of cleaning here and there, what I love the most is preparing worksheets for all my babies! I get to show my drawing skills here. I also have learnt to be more responsible.

Photos of some of my playgroup tots!

My darling wide eyed Avighna

My baby Wen Wen.

My adorable Khushi

My brilliant Nihar.

Last week was hectic I had to teach them because the last teacher left. Very tiring but somehow I enjoyed their company. Getting hugs and kisses. hahah. There are alot more of kids my favourite Aqil is sick so I can't get a pic of him. I taught 3 classes everyday 5 days aweek.

Last Thursday was a night out with poly mates only 4 of us were there thought it was like a last outing before some people had to leave for national service. We went down to town, some people did some shopping while others just window shop! Then we went to eat at Sakura... was it?

Last Friday dad treated us to dinner at Jalan Kayu . foohhhh we ate a lot. Satay, seafood fried rice ,sweet sour prawn, chap cai and lemon chicken. Talking about all this food haha makes me hungry and i am fasting today. ok stop!

Some ppl makan muka tak maintain

Look at my brother haha so lahap!

Food ... food and more food!

Last Saturday went to return graduation robe with Sakinah

( Prayer of the day )

One thing that I only hope for is to get better. Ya allah sesungguhnya kau maha pengasih lagi maha penyayang kau terimalah aku dan semua amalan ku sesungguhnya aku telah cuba sedaya upaya untuk tidak menjadi lemah atau lalai. Yang lain semua urusan mu ya allah. Sesungguhnya kau maha mengetahui kesulitanku da kelemahan ku, ku mohon pertolongan agar dijauhi aku dari mereka.

I've GRADUATED! BUT I'm still working part time as an administrator/playgroup teacher at a child care center. Insyaallah after the lady deliver I will start hunt for new job! And insyaallah when I get better I will excel better. I realise everywhere I go there will always be OFFICE POLITICS. Trust me even at the VERY SMALL enrichment centre. SHEESH!

Anyways photos from graduation2008




Crazy pals with their crazy antics, psst the rest of the pics are up on facebook. I gtg zzz... soon got a bunch of super hyper active kids to teach from 9.30 to 2 tomorrow. sighhh...

Yellow Butterfly

Is a song by Meg & Dia. Seriously talented duo. Writing songs out of books they read. I love this particular song its about unconditional love of a mother who lost her child, a story made up by Dia. If it were made into a film I'd like to be the one to write the script or be apart of it in any ways possible! Listen to it here.








By the way I got the temporary job. I went for the interview last Wednesday. Well starting this Monday. Wish me to have the best of working environment.

Sinema Old House - DMMT Graduation Screening 2008

A night out.

Time check :12:06 midnight

I just got back like 26 minutes ago at 11:40pm? Don't bother to bathe too tired just wash my face for tonight. Tomorrow i will do my 360 degrees bath! Hah!

I went to the Graduation Screening just now. Watched a total of 6 short films and 1 trailer for $4 - so worth it. It was entertaining to watch my friend's final year works they were all good. I liked DOGMA, Karma and Like me like you. I went there to enjoy myself and to meet friends I haven't seen for months. Though I felt out of place but what the heck. People from the media industry were there eg. Jack Neo, Oak3 films...

Pics from today's events



Syaz,me, I dont know who and Nur Fitri haha its Jing li. Fitri is one of the names I thought I wanna name my future daughter haha but whatever. Jing li is nice though.


Shah , Siraj and Schizo

Syaz & I. We both just look fabulous tonight don't we?

Karma Team.
The short film was great even Siraj's directing skills was acknowledge by Jack Neo. Who would have guess if Siraj will be the next McG or Bryan Singer or maybe even Steven Spielberg? Doesn't Siraj Spielberg sounds great! That's it for now. Blog again tomorrow? I doubt so

A Day Out

12 pm - Job Interview
How did it went? It went well but still don't know if I got it cause they say they would call up if I get it. i was the 1st to be interviewed today there were 3 more candidates after me.

2.30pm - Badminton With Adila
It was great fun. I had fun. After badminton went to Ad's place watch a bit of TV , eat snacks and talk crap. Thanks Dila for the day and everything. I missed u haha at least rindu dah terubat! She gave me mangosteens to bring home. Thanks a lot!




6.00pm - Tutoring
I went that taught my cousin Math for awhile and ate dinner and go home.

8.15pm - Home Sweet Home

PS: I never had soo much to do in one day for the longest time :D I feel so alive. haha

SURAH AR- RAHMAN

Listen to this beautiful recitation of the surah i found on youtube. I love it... Fell in love with it. makes me love the quran more.



In this post i want to thank Dila and Sakinah for their advise and support. I will help myself to become better insyaallah.

Mum. I need u.

I am not that close to my mum but recent events brought us closer. She gives me support. She is working tonight and I miss her. Funny, I miss my dad too.sheesh.Ya allah kau tabahkanlah aku. Kuatkanlah aku untuk menghadapi cobaan mu yg paling besar ini. Amin.

Aloha people.
Sadly to say I did not get into NTU. Yeps got the letter today. I was devastated. So I cried a fair bit cause I was on my way to teaching tuition anyway. So on my way I kept thinking a lot. I am actually afraid now wondering what the future will be. But I will say that... I accept this fate and this test from Allah cause I've tried you know. It's better to try than not to try at all.

Aku redha ya allah, aku redha... I know you have better plans for me. ada hikmah di sebalik semua ini aku harus terima dengan hati terbuka. Maybe Allah wants me to reach my goal even faster than i thought. Insyaallah. amin. ya rabbal a'lamin.

Today, Marks maybe my 10th mosquito bite in 2 weeks. Damn you mozzies! The final straw is when you bit my face! My sister asked me why I didn't tell her I had a scandal with the mozzies. What the heck.

Ya Allah kau kuatkan lah iman ku ya allah. Mengapalah ada orang yg hatinya busuk sangat dan dengki pada umatmu ya allah? Aku tak akan risau ya allah kerana azab yang pedih akan menanti dia di sana.