I am SUPERRRRR TIRED. Am not getting enough rest or sleep. Life is hard but I have to deal with it. Whatever you did to me is scarred in me. I can't believe you'd have the heart to do it to me! I can care about you only less. I hate you. why victimise your own blood?

Ya Allah help me...make me grow only stronger after this. Please protect me from all the evil in the world especially in this beautiful month..Protect me...save me :\

HELLO
Selamat Berpuasa !!! / Happy Fasting To All

Today is the 2nd Day of Ramadhan. YAY!... School's gonna start in a week's time. I hope I am ready to lead my team to victory.

I miss all of my girls. I hope we all can meet up soon. I wanna go Geylang with ALL OF YOU 11 people and have fun! I wanna break fast with all of you... I know maybe some of you has forgotten all of the fun we had together... all of the laughter... Maybe some of these photos may bring back some memories...

2004

2005

2006

Things may never be the same people but we sure can try...

Damn I miss my tomato,sami, amy,esah,zila,syazana, wak2 .... conclusion I miss u all more than anything in the world. This Ramadhan I miss Fad more:(

I'm kinda getting sick of not getting to see my e-mails in hotmail!!!! The network here is sucky...Well that's what you get for free wireless...

Well I wanna wish my friend Fatimah . A Big Happy Birthday!!!Wahhhh org tu da 19 sey sey sey!!!! Ohhhh I miss the days we go to our defense classes together. I miss our class and maybe our trainer or not! hahaha

I miss my girlfriendsssss.... hahaha Ramadhan's around the corner. All the temptations and all our needs ,wants everythingg!! have to be CURB! I hope muslims all over the world especially the young ones respect that month that we honour the most. If they don't than what can I say other than pray for you so you'd change:) insya allah...

Heyyy... Look who's birthday is it today... It is Ryan Ross ( Panic! At The Disco) haha... Happy 21st Birthday now that your really legal!




Tomorrow Happy 19th to Syazzy!!!! Wish you all the best in life... And semua yang dilakukan diredhai Allah. Long life and murah rezeki -Amin-



Oh on 2nd September to Spencer Smith Of Panic! At The Disco. Happy 20th!!! 3 hours lack of sleep results to this. Good right? You know why I do vectors of them(Panic!)?Cause I really am sending it to them:) They deserve it for the good music:)Next will be Paramore.

I gtg cause my butt is aching from sitting on this hard wooden chair they have in libraries!!! Besides I can still feel the vadai I ate in the morning and it is like 4:29 pm?What the heck right?

Hejab

I am a bit pissed. Why does woman who wears Hejab has difficulty in finding jobs? especially those require uniform. People come on... hejab doesn't hinder our movements nor affects our work! What difference does wearing a hejab and not wearing one ,with the work we are doing?

Look at me! Look at all those woman who wears hejab and DO SPORTS! Look at us we can still succeed , hejab did not stop us. We can still go far in life. Just because we are proud of being a muslim woman doesn't mean we cannot do our work well. In fact we work harder, we work sincerely to prove to people that we too can make it!

I don't go for jobs that requires us to take off our hejab while working than putting it back on after work. WHAT IS THIS??? Hejab is not something to be treated like that! It should be treated with higher respect. Sigh... Why are there still companies out there who cannot employ woman wearing their hejabs? World have change people! It is time you change your point of view too.

Conclusion:

HEJAB DO NOT AFFECT THE WORK WE DO! It is just a mark of piety and that this simple piece of cloth is to preserve my dignity.

Furthermore i believe that we must not sacrifice our religion for a mere job, there is a lot of other jobs . We are not DESPERATE. One door closes another opens! it could be better than the first one. Insyaallah.

Furthermore I can still be vogue in my hejab too :p hahahahahaha
hahaha

Ya Allah.... Help Me.... I am LOST!!!! I .... don' t know what to say or do anymore... SAVE ME ;(

I CAN'T LET ANYBODY GO.... I CAN'T. I SIMPLY CAN'T :(
Grandpa! I AMMM SO DISAPPOINTED IN YOU. YOU ARE THE ONLY GUY I LOOK UP TO.
NOW I DON'T KNOW. I'LL CRY MY EYES OUT IF YOU DO IT.

I ONLY HAVE ONE GRANNY AND SHE DIED AND I LOVE HER VERY MUCH.SHE CANNOT BE REPLACED!!!!

PEOPLE! PEOPLE! WE'VE GOT 3 DAYS LEFT! 2 IF NOT COUNTING TODAY!!!!

SP!!!!! SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC! HOW MUCH I MISS YOU!!!!

I've been dancing , jumping and all those crazy things people do when they are CRAZILY HAPPY

It has been a LOOOONG 4 Months RAce But I've Made It. I've SURVIVED!!! Thank You Allah... I am leaving in 3 days FINALLY .MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA ;) We've GOT TO CELEBRATE!!! CHEERIOS

Cake Anyone?

Hey people ever felt like... U and your once good friend don't seem to click anymore? I don't know what's going on with me but I just feel at times I am better off alone... I feel like crying... I feel LOST. I just hope Allah will guide me. Sometimes I just feel I don't know what I want in this life and who I am ANYMORE. But I know what I am looking for.

Ohhh I did Amy a makeover she look like this after the make over

So how? do I qualify as good at giving someone a makeover?

We picked style no.6 out of all the 6 styles I planned for her which is a long dress & belt + jeans

yay! I promise to pass u more pics Amy!

Okay I wanna wish HAK HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY THE VIDEO AT THE BOTTOM IS FOR YOU!

Hi... Went out with my girls on saturday. There is a video I made out of the photos we took! Enjoy girls=) On Sunday gave Amy a makeover but photos not uploaded yet. Whatever it is watch the video my 3 girls!

Hello!

I am sooo counting down the days till we LEAVE!!! :/ :\ :) :D :P :D :D :D I am making many happy faces... :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

Is That HUGE enough? To tell you how glad I am?

You DO NOT understand me. And I am tired of making you understand. I am NOT your typical / average malay girl who wants to be attached or get married as soon as i step into the age range of 20s! I don't want all that yet.

I HAVE GOALS! I HAVE DREAMS! I WANT A CAREER! I WANNA BE SUCCESSFUL. I WANT SUCCESS. DO YOU GET THAT?

No all you wanna do is control me? Well you can't. So what if i wanna get married when i am 30! Love, boyfriend, marriage is ALL SECONDARY TO ME. In this life all I wanna be is reach for my goals and make my faith go stronger and prepare for my after life. That's all and nothing more.

You better becareful before I collect enough money and run off to Australia. I am sick and tired OK? I don't want any boyfriend in my life okay? NOt now not sooner. And the only person who ever believed in me is gone! No one believes in my ability than her! Listen to this song. I love it.

Being sick is no fun at all... I'm tired of going to the clinic. I'm tired of my pay getting cut! But I thank Allah for one thing. my life & being called LOVE twice plus an "I miss u" from my girlfriends. I feel blessed. I can't wait for Ramadhan.I've drawn her up maybe its time for u ppl to see...

Her: " i miss yousss are simply not enough!! (:"

Now i truly miss her

O I drew something for the guitarist of Panic!'s Birthday

Wish me luck in sending it to him in time....

Now more wedding dress:

3 more weeks and WE ARE OUT!

K i know I am not beautiful but u don't have to say it right? Ya maybe i have horrible skin cause i have tonnes of sins. Maybe you're right and it hurts to know that! I've had it tough and u make everything even harder for me. I am suffering and u don't know. I haven't been well mentally nor physically but FAITH keeps me strong.

I cried my eyes out in every prayer, I know someday everything will be answered... that you'll never know cause all u care is about yourself!

Sorry ppl. Feeling very emotional. But anyways I've made another creation for u to comment.

So what u guys think? Tag me up!

One more creation... is here!

I know it looks kinda plain but listen to my vision first! I thought the material that it'd be made of will be rich and grand. Like gold lace over white satin or white / silver lace over white satin... There u are enjoy my new design. More to come:) Watch out for it!!!
In case if u are wondering what's that that is holding the veil... its a small hat.- later...

hey ppl as promised the illustration of the back view of the previous dress + an additional one new creation... tada!

Back view of previous dress i've posted.


My New Creation!!!

Tag me up!leave your notes...

Thanks Amy for the comments / criticism. I am making something different from the usual that's in the market. You see I don't want to make big gowns like those normal wedding gowns. Because I want this collection of mine to be just simple, modern and clean-cut wedding dresses with a touch of glamour. Maybe I'll try designing big gowns later. Thanks again.

So here's my next design, maybe I'll draw the view of the back tonight.

Don't forget to leave your comments on my tagboard:) - Ateeq

So now I've decided to put all my designs online for people to comment. for now I'm sooo into designing wedding dresses (don't know why) but anyways here's my 2nd wedding dress design. It is ahem copyrighted.heheh. Enjoy commenting and criticising!

This is the plain one...

This is the patterned ones.

So ppl please tell me which one do u prefer?

Cheers:)

Look at this! I designed and illustrated it. Anyone pls come & comment!Supposedly a simple wedding dress! Ok So how was 07/07/07? I'll update u more on Live Earth Day. All I can say is I wore green!!! The concert was awesome esp. Linkin Park in Tokyo + Fall Out Boy in NY??!!!

I'm taking a risk... But I got to get this out of my system.
I swear to god she has nothing better to do!

As I look out the foggy window of the bus, i was on my way to visit my best friend. Listening to the sound of Panic! At the disco, All-american rejects and Red Jumpsuit Apparatus not forgetting MCR.

Walking was far... but I'd walk a thousand miles for her, I love her too much. The moment I'm there I visit my grandma first then hers followed by my uncles and grandpa. I wanted to cry badly... my tears wanted to roll but I can't cos' my dad is there and I can't show a tad bit of emotion though my heart wants too. Here are the photos of my trip visiting my friend's grave. i thank my dad for bringing me.

I guess he knows how much I miss her since i keep dreaming about her in my sleep. Thanks dad. You'll never read this but I never felt loved by u before but now i know its those little things that counts.








A pathetic bus stop with only one bus that comes to it only on hari raya and after chinese prayers.








This is my uncle's.







Yup that's my dad.


When I went there and saw a lot of grave's that are not visited i felt like crying and when I see those of children's and babies my heart feels heavier. especially I still remember one of a little girl where the family left her umbrella on her tomb stone.

The experience really taught me a big lesson in life... and I found one more hobby. Talking to the dead and giving salam to them. I made a promise to myself to visit them every month. insyaallah. Ya allah please grant my wishes and prayers and save me. Save them. PLEASE stop my grandpa from marrying another woman. I love my grandma sooooo much and I don't want any other woman taking her place cos' she was special and WILL ALWAYS be.