After Days Of Sleepless Nights...

I can finally kick back and relax for I am done!!! OK so here are the results of those sleepless days.

These photos are not meant to be together. I drew them separately but man it looks so united.

There are like 3 or 4 more drawings... I will put them up soon :) Hahaha I know this looks cute. Hopefully one day I get the chance to illustrate a storybook for children, that will be a dream come true. Insyaallah .... Well now I have to wait for the KA-CHing. ahahahah alhamdulillah

Illustration In Session

And so I had to help my cousin to do illustrations for 2 Malay folk tales or stories.
Bawang Putih Bawang Merah & Singapura Dilanggar Todak. I have to do the entire story, mind you. So far I did only the cover for both of the stories... I have many more pages to go & all have be done by WEDNESDAY :S Hopefully I can finish them up. And just for your entertainment & also because I'm tired out of my mind. Laugh all you want as I come up with Bahasa rojak storybook covers. haha. Leave comments on the illustrations though.


Bawang white bawang red

Singapura Dilanggar Swordfish
PS: Hahah the titles a joke . To keep me amused :D
2am already got to sleep as tomorrow will be a longer day of illustrating and tutoring...I am mentally tired just by the thought of tomorrow or is it later today.

Worried

I did some reading on abdominal pains. I don't wanna freak out for nothing. I can just pray and hope its minor...please Allah protect me. Hopefully its just gastric pains but sheesh I've been eating like a regular person! I got to get myself to the clinic soon.

Things i want to buy.....

Once i get the "free" money whahaha...

• A new cellphone cover. I dropped my cellphone too much! scratches like everywhere!!!! Lucky didn't crack my camera lens.
• 2 piece of clothing item

The rest will be spent on buying stuff for my online blog shop & bills.

PS: To my dear girlfriend you know who you are. Thanks for going out with me even for awhile just now, just need to talk things out. You take care of yourself, you can do it , I know you can. I am here for you, I'll be behind you 100%. Will definitely help when you need a helping hand. Take care don't stress out too much, I love you too much. I don't mind me being unhappy but I can't bare seeing my bestie sedih. I will always pray for you. Be happy darling:)

By the wayyyyyy....DO Check this Buy U a Drank cover by JMac which is superbbbbb.... Love him. Sorry can't embed it.

How I spent my Valentines?

Woke up early went cycling with Aminah & went madrasah to mosque then home.

Cycling. Well I love it, feel so accomplished. We cycled from Hougang to Khatib & back.



Us at the Jetty @ Lower Seletar Reservoir.

Celebrated Sufi's birthday today together with Hamizan's. Both are born on 14th & 16th Feb respectively. Happy birthday my brothers. insyaallah allah panjangkn umur & murahkn rezki. amin.

Insomnia

I'm tired but i can't sleep......................... But anyways today i went to see Syazzy. I had fun Syazzy just wished we could look around longer like you know what I love to do window shop, talk about life and styles. I hope next month we can go out for Dinna's birthday :) Cann't wait.

I miss TLC sooo much that it hurts.hurts.hurts.


syazzy look so sweet. Hey girl don't worry I'll stand by you... same goes to all my besties :)
PS: Man my eyebags are killing me!

Don't Crack Under Pressure

My mum's quitting her job. I'm getting new students to tutor and I really, really hope I don't crack under pressure...

Life's getting harder each day. allah help me please guide me.

Put all those aside~ I am soooo in love with Jesse Mccartney he is just oh so charming ahahaha.

What am I ever gonna do...

Life is too complicated.
I have to step up my game.
Allah I can only work & pray to you please,please please make it easier on me.

Happy Night

I sold 4 brooches unexpectedly today! and... finally the pics that you have all been waiting for...


Siraj & Syaz in the car boot! ahaha


We didn't wanna let them out at first but we eventually did. The event was like watching circus. wahahah. Sorry syazzy :P

I LOVE TARINA TARANTINO

BUT.... I can't afford Tarina Tarantino! Oh my goshhhhh.... her accessories are SOOOOOO UNIQUE. Sheeshhh I think if I ever get my first big fat paycheck I will buy something from her online site. But then again I HATE to splurge haha. Then it will just stay a dream then. Anyhow... I shall show you what I am eyeing for!

Cute right ? Queen Alice pendant

Nice swarovski crystal clip. Might pin nicely on the hijab too!

A cute chunky bracelet.
ALL these might just burn a big hole in my pocket!

I made a mistake.

I made THE MOST TIRING MISTAKE today. I hope I've learnt my mistake.

Dear parents.
Please give me time & space to sort things out. I know what I am doing and that Allah is guiding me all HE can. so please give me till June.

My First Lesson

Selamat Petang Cikku!!!! aahahahaha cikku Atijah... sooo cute.

Teaching these primary 3 kids was fun!!! I had to tolerate a bit of nonsense but nothing that I can't handle since I already had taught kids which are far younger and behave wayyyyy badly. Maybe next time I'd take a class photo of these kids.

You know what I hate? I hate falling in love with them and have to let them go at the end of the year. Yes I am like that, I hate goodbyes even with my girls when we part I feel the need to hug them even tears felt like developing but nah... I know I will see them again =)

Today I just felt the presence of Allah soooo much. I just had to say thank you Allah. Thank you!
Remember this? This was one of the highlights in my life. I LOVE ALL OF YOU *hearts* Ahaha we were sooooo kental. Look at how everyone changed and progressed.

Man! I look like one of the boys. ahahah and i love it cause I always give them a run for their money.

TIRED

I am tired ( exercise and cycling) and tomorrow is the first day of teaching I can't hardly wait!!!
"Selamat Petang anak-anakku"

Teaching my mother tongue to a another race is going to be super interesting =)

I dont wanna be involved

U determine your life now. I don't wanna hear any complains from you or if anything goes wrong. Impulsiveness is STUPID. Bottom-line I don't wanna be involved... at all. Oh one more thing dont ask me for advise on anything besides life and academics . thank you. Good luck anyways:)

A Night Out With My SP Siblings

Reaching home late night again. These are the kind of madness that develops when you are friends with these bunch. We went for dinner at Newton and went to Bedok reservoir for our lepak session.

Me & Syazzy @ Marina Square

I think 4 years and going strong

Me and my fire fighter friend

My SP Siblings. My crazy brothers and Sisters :)


Our Seafood dinner we ordered stingray, baby squid,satay, lemon chicken and kangkong

our lepak session too bad Siraj had to go home early.
The exclusive pics are not with me yet guess u readers have to wait :)

Feel Like Wearing A trash bag

I know I've put on weight damn it. I feel like wearing a trash bag! Man I am so going to try to lose 10 kilos in March. It is hard for me I know because my body isn't tolerating with me at all , it is soooo difficult to lose it, it took me 2 years to lose 10kilos in the past 2 years. I know I must be more disciplined.

Ok I will try to eat one meal a day, only drink plain/green tea and workout everyday for 2 hours. sheesh these things sounds tough already but if I have strong will and focussed, I can do it. Give me support ya.

Just gotten home from a long night out with SP mates. Believe me or not we did the craziest thing ever. Syazzy and Siraj was sitting in the boot of the car and I am totally serious! Pics tomorrow alright I am super exhausted :S

A well spent day at the beach

So today is CNY! tong tong tong qiang! hahaahah. So my dad brought us to the beach again so after I've learnt my lesson last year I decided against going for a swim because the toilet is going to be super packed and bingo! The day didn't start too well because of my dad's nagging . tak habis2 ! But as it progresses it turns out quite well.

Well I had fun sitting around, taking photos and soaking my feet in the water. I am however going for a swim on Wednesday or Thursday morning when I can have the sea and toilet all to myself providing I have a companion plus it doesn't rain. I am wishing real hard Amy can accompany me. ahaha. I am looking forward to see my SP mates tomorrow:)

So here are the photos of the day.


I know what u thinking! OMG sexy legs! haha the tidal waves were high ok!

My favourite shot this is super candid

My brothers soaking up the sun and got tanned a little too much.

I buried both my brothers and it was like super hot la


A true PUTERI LILIN!

My mum and dad step lovey dovey bluek! ahahaha. U see my dad? ada ke tadi ura-ura nak buat handstand against a pokok kelapa, nasib baik I stopped him & made he think twice. Dulu kalau masih muda dan ringan tu tak pe la skrg dah boncit nanti kalau jatuh hanya tuhan sahaja tau betapa malunye I will be . HAHAHAHA

Cute pe gamba.

So happy chinese new year to everybody dan jangan lupa ya bahawa tanda dunia akan kiamat ( Gerhana Matahari) telah timbul sooo di tahun baru cina ni saya harap kita dapat mempertingkatkan lagi amalan kita :D
PS: Dunia belom kiamat! Remmber that song. Lagu tu patut di scrap kerana dunia closing to kiamat. harap2 jangan lah soon aku belom ready. amin.

Sometimes...

I feel like I want to paint my face and pretend that I'm someone else. I am laughing as hard as I can and as loud as I can but does my heart laugh along to the beat of my laughter? hmmm....
I am worrying too much that a little while ago I stopped craving for food and my appetite got lost in my thoughts.

Ya Allah, berilah aku petunjuk sekali lagi. Dugaan kali ini amat berat.

PS: My girls I had fun yesterday reading everyone's testimonial. Miss my loves!

Things that keep me motivated

...Is the testimonial I got from my girls in secondary school, the one Cikgu asked us to write and he got it laminated for us. Some of the comments i still don't know who it was from. Ouh to siapa2 yang baca ni if you have the time post your testimonials too! I wanna see !!!

NUR ATIQAH

1) Seorang pelajar yang baik! ( I still don't know who gave me this comment)

2) Perwatakan kamu yang periang, sering sahaja membuat kelas bahasa melayu kita begitu ceria sekali. (Adila! Thank you:) U are my partner in crime 4ever)

3) Senyumanmu manis, suaramu merdu. Sweet-sweet janganlah kau terlalu "buas" kerana kelembutan lambang kewanitaan( Confirm from Syazana, malay very formal. Sorrie babe I am still BUAS kata anak jantan mah... haha)

4) Sweet-sweet girl. Pipinya sentiasa merah. Selalu senyum. Bagus dalam judo,kelakar.ceria. Semoga berjaya dalam akademik. Nadz. ( Naidatul because she signed of her name)

5) Walaupun "buas" suaranya yang lunak dapat rasa " terselamat" dengannya. ( Who gave me this ? Own up!)

6) Walaupun kamu dipanggil Buas selalunya, Tetapi kau tetap menjadi "pujaan" hatiku. ( Aisyah... Harap I am your pujaan hati 4ever ahahah)

7)Seorang teman yang jarang atau sukar untuk ditemui kerana dalam banyak2 kawan yang saya ada, awak seoranglah yang paling gembira dan ceria selalu. Kami berkawan rapat sejak menengah 3 . Hati-hati ya...silap langkah...hah...bukan silat yang dia buat... Judo! Jangan main-main tau! ( Aminah. I hope I am still as cheerful as I was back then and I hope I am still as funny as I was back then)

8) Sahabat yang kuat! (SHEMAN)
Seirang yang berani dan tegas ( Hmmm... who the hell wrote this? ahahah)

9) Seorang yang rajin dan sangat peramah. Hey Atiqah... You are pretty tau...ingat jangan ganas-ganas sangat, nanti orang lari... haha ( ni confirm Sarah. I miss u babe da almost a year plus tak jumpa. hmmm)

10) Awas!! Buas Bonna! To SHE-MAN, Thanks for being there for me...*Muhuhahaha*Kalau nak gi happy hour dun ferget to ask me ya!!*Muhuhahaha* ( Arwah Fadinah. I hope I have been the greatest friend you had when you were still around. I miss u lots)

PS: Aku baru sedar eh Sakinah mane satu yang kau tulis ha....??? U girls made my life more meaningful...

Stop Being Negative

Why being happy is so difficult whilst being unhappy is so easy?
Are we not satisfied with our lives that we have to feel unhappy half the time? hmmm.....
For me I am satisfied with whatever I have now but I'll be lying if I say I am satisfied with everything. But sometimes u know you can't be happy all the time and u cry when you're mad or sad but that should be less than 50 % of your time.

Still the most important thing I have learnt and one great lesson in life is don't let my mood spoils anybody else's mood, Thank you to Syazzy for teaching me this. So if I am unhappy I will be unhappy for a minute and complaining,blabbing and all but the next minute I'll make YOU happy.

3 steps to a happier life : 1 ) complain all you want / express yourself
2) Don't think about it too much
3) laugh it off & let go ( THIS IS THE HARDEST PART)
Remember NO one wants to die unhappy!


Miss ya Syaz!