Ramadhan Diary Day 6(6th of August 2011)

Today is my 3rd day of losing to that "friend of the month". My whole family missed sahur, we can't seem to wake up. My dad called me multiple times. My first time not waking up to phone calls. I must be dead asleep. I spent the afternoon shopping with Humaira and mother. Shopping for her hari raya clothes. We walked for hours and hours before we finally found the dress. She has a specific colour she was looking for:GREEN!

Then went out and had dinner with Mai.

I also voice chatted with him today, a lot of things happen, I think I'm slowly falling for him Ya Allah. What am I going to do? I don't even know if he feels the same way about me. He is funny, cute and kind. My gut feeling tells me he likes me too. But I don't know how can I confirm it? I don't want to be the only one feeling this way. He said "What do you want for your birthday?... me?"

And he promised me, he promised that he will stop smoking in 2 years. I don't know if I can trust him on this. But if he does this and really stick to it, it does say a lot. In can only mean, I mean a lot to him therefore he keeps the promise. My only prayer for him now is: Allah show him the right path. If you think that I can guide him to the right path please bring him closer to me, if not distance him from me. If you give him to me, I'll make sure I'll do a good job. If you don't i'm ready to ikhlas.

Ramadhan Diary Day 5 (4th of August 2011)

My 2nd day losing to "friend of the month". I thought I wasted time today but when I reflect on the things I did today...I completed or did a lot of work. One thing for sure is I've revised one of the modules I'm studying. The other one I've revised a little. This weekend will be spent for studying and work. I can be a real workaholic, once I start my engine it will be difficult to stop.

Ya Allah aku cemburu dengan adik lelaki aku yang tiap-tiap hari tanpa gagal pergi berterawih. Aku harap aku juga boleh berbuat demikian. Aku rasa urusan dunia terlalu banyak dan buatkan manusia sibuk,lalai dan leka dalam mengerjakan dan menghalusi ibadah mereka. Aku sedih ya Allah, bila masa ada di tangan kami juga kami tidak dapat melakukannya dengan sempurna kerana kami dibuai khayalan , rasa pemalas dan nafsu syaitan dalam diri kita. Ya Allah kuatkanlah imanku melawan syaitan dalam diri ini.

Today, I did cartwheels in front of my colleagues like WTH hahaha but whatever all thanks to the Mak Buyong who wanted to see it.

Yesterday I showed him a photo of my mum praying and then he asked me "Don't you pray?". Oh gosh I said I have because I didn't want to explain about that friend of the month thingy hahahah. He said "Oh~so fast" LOL. He asked me more about Ramadhan today and he knows that this month is important to me. It is funny how he said "But it will be a difficult month for me" EH? haha is it his lack of english skills or does he have any ideas in joining me? Alhamdulillah. Ya Allah bantulah dia ya Allah dapatkanlah aku dengan secara perlahan menarik diri nya untuk menerimaMU. Amin~

My favourite song for the month~

Ramadhan Diary Day 4

I was soooooo looking forward to do a good deed with mum today that is go for my first solat Tarawih for this Ramadhan. All of a sudden at around 6.00pm that friend of the month came TTTT Oh Allah I'll definitely go for it next week. Insyaallah. Let me live through this Ramadhan, ya Allah. The mum cooked Roti kirai today, it is super delicious^^ alhamdulillah.

He was the first to message me today at 8:56am Good morning~ Have a nice day!!!

You're too sweet you know that? Allah knows. Oh Allah guide him to the right path. -amin-

Every single day is meaningful with...

This cute baby of mine. Everyday we will be like this and share silent conversations only both of us understand. I have this special bond with him that no others have. Ya Allah how will I cope if you take him away? Maybe I will react the same way when Eeteuk died. I only pray to meet both of them in paradise. Amin~

Ramadhan Diary

Day 1 of Ramadhan (1st of August 2011)

I broke my fast at Unisim. First time ever, I broke my fast with strangers instead of family members. Well, hello new friends. New friends were made because of Ramadhan. Ramadhan is the only time total strangers can be related to each other in one way or another.

I taught him and he wished me " Happy Ramadhan!" ^^

Day 2 of Ramadhan (2nd of August 2011)

Again, broke fast with another set of new strangers. World is strange after all. And subhanallah I discovered I was praying in the right direction after all without even finding the kiblat with a compass. How amazing and blessed I felt. Amin~

And he said " Ramadhan day is very hard TT" it made me laugh as I thought ' As if you're fasting!' But in my heart i prayed insyaallah one day when Allah gives you hidayah you will.

Day 3 of Ramadhan ( 3rd of August 2011)

Finally broke my fast with my FAMILY. The mum cooked mee soto. yummy~ Though the air was a bit tensed. Alhamdulillah I get to be with my family today. Today was challenging, my night classes are taking its toll on me. With the fasting, teaching and night classes I feel terribly exhausted. Thank you Allah for giving me strength today. Allahuakbar.