Darla's & Amy's Day Out

Besides the fact that my health is deteriorating. I had fun being Rachel Zoe for a day. So I was Amy's personal shopper for the day. She bought a fresh green printed dress. I love the dress wish its mine.



I bought my mum a forever 21 wallet for her birthday. So deliciously yellow.


PS: Ya Allah tenangkanlah hatiku.

iLL

I am falling sick again~

An open letter to my Grandpa

Hello grandpa,
Please stick around longer. I know you are old enough that Allah can take you any time. I am not ready to lose you too :( I have too many memories of you and me talking. You sharing your war stories with me. I miss nenek too. I remember the past 3 years I spent a lot of time with you and nenek. She's gone I miss her a whole lot, maybe if she's around things wouldn't end up this way. Atok please stay, if you were to go I hope it will be easy on you.

Unhappy

Hey people!
I've got the job at River Valley Primary as a Conversational Malay teacher! yay! Hurray alhamdulillah! but I am still not happy. If I still haven't got any reply from MOE regarding N.I.E, I am a very worried girl. All pressure is on me now. A lot of it. Ya Allah kuatkanlah aku menghadapi dugaan yang kau turunkan padaku ini,aku takut jikalau aku tak kuat ya allah. Ya Allah ya rahman berilah ku petunjuk dan kekuatan. amin.

I keep thinking of her. I miss her a lot. She was my bestie that I talk to a lot! Now that she isn't around anymore I don't know where or who I can just let all out to. Ya Allah aku ikhlas ya allah dengan kepergiannya tetapi kadangkala ku di timpa kerinduan yang amat sangat padanya terkadang aku terasa seperti hilang tempat ku mengadu atau hilang kebahagiaanku. Ketemukan lah aku dengan bayi yang aku selama ini impi-impikan yang boleh mengubati kerinduan dan kembalikan kebahagiaan ku walaupun seketika .amin.

Bestie & I ( Its been 2 years my friend. I still love you. I still remembered our last hug. I will forever cherish our 7 years of memories in my heart. I will always think of you. pray for you. Love U forever.)

I know people you might think I have gone mad but you know I am feeling too lonely. Sheeshhh I need to keep myself super busy, I really hope I get into N.I.E so I will be too busy to even feel anything at all. cheers :)

Guilt Stricken

I am happy today cause I've got a new toy! My hula hoop=) I have been hula hooping around the house. I will have a 20 minute routine of hoopla fun everyday!

Sheesh... seeing tears shedding makes me rethink whether I did the right thing. Feeling VERY VERY guilty maybe I should just back off and let her think for herself. I never regret my decisions but am just rethinking again & again. Ya Allah help her. I hope I am right :/

One thing that made my day though was beating Retard in a badminton match!17-20. He said that he gave me the chance to win like WADEVER!!! All guys say that when they lose to a girl.haha. YAY! he wants a re-match. Insyaallah I'll play better than today's game. WEE~

Going off still feeling guilty guilty guilty.

PS: Allah please please please get me what I want.I promise I will work super hard. Save my grandpa too not ready to lose him. I forgive him.

Back To Class!

Hey ppl,
I am back to religious class and I LOVE it. I LOVE attending school =) love love love. Here are the pics after the religious class from 5pm to 7.30pm. Besides studying I love making new pals. Maybe I will get some photos of my new pals next week totally love it.


Norsiah looks sweet right....

We indulge ourselves in blueberry & oreo cheesecake.
I am irritated with someone at this point of time. SO RUDE!!! Whatever~
TLC girls take me out!

Darling & Darla's Evening Out

We didn't have any plans to meet up but its a last minute thingy she called me up and its a date. I enjoyed our outing at Vivo! I love you darling thanks for the outing I really enjoyed it hope more of our other besties will join us next time. Insyaallah. So far 2009 have start off SUPERB for me and I am superbly happy. Just hope this year Allah will give me a treat in Ramadhan something i have wished for quite some time.


Darling & Darla


Cya peeps am signing out!

My 2009 Resolutions

So here are my 2009 Resolutions:

1) Lose weight! ( I've been thinking about this for a long time, been working for it for a long time but it is just soooo difficult to fit my running routine or workout routine in my working lifestyle.I guess I have to take up kickboxing classes at a place real soon.)

2) To enrol in N.I.E ( insyaallah if god wills it to happen and if I work hard enough I will get it! I have prayed the Istikhorah prayer and I think Allah have given me a very strong sense on what to do. Allahuakhbar!)

3) Save money and work real hard to get a BABY! I want a daughter. My motherly insticts is kicking in reak strong.( I am too lonely, ppl! I wanna adopt a baby. I think that is what gonna make me super happy and occupied plus it will be like having a companion for life. Ulfah Muyassarah! here I come ~)

Thinking about it my parents will definitely not be happy if I adopt one but its a lifelong dream for me. Unless if someone wants to look for that someone for me ahahaha BUT that someone have to wait a REAAAALLL long time for anything to happen, how bout 8 years! I got too much to do before I wanna settle down and I hold on to my principles very strong so 8 years does mean 8 years.



I miss them calling me Teacher Atiqah! I miss them hugging me give me sweet little kisses eventhough they are little devils ( very naughty) they are also angels in my heart. This is why I know teaching will be perfect for me.

Hello 2009!

Assalamualaikum!
HEllo people Happy New Year & Ma'al Muharram!!!! Lets start the new year with a big BANG! I just got back from the fireworks display at Marina Square,City Hall. Happy 2009 everyone. Our initial plan was Marina Barrage but since my hungry stomach came in the way we went back to City Hall then back to Marina and we got to know that Marina Barrage is in full capacity !!!!
So we went back to Marina Square and I think we got one of the best views of fireworks display:)

Thank you Sakinah for making my day. WEEEE~ Oh besides that I had to chapperone Retard & Maira, It was fun going out with the both of you too.
Pics:

Me & My Girl!


My Company For the event! Look at that Retard at the back. Retarded right????

The only photo of the fireworks cause you know why? Here is the treat for everyone who missed it. Live! Online. Sorry if it is superb noisy.

New Blog Skin

Yay! New blog skin took time out from work. Feeling a little under the weather *cough**cough*
Actually I'm super tired ! My visions are blurry, my body is aching. Imagine working from Tuesday all the way to Sunday and if I were to work today I think I will go insane.

So with this free time in hand I revamp the blog skin to make it more personal because all the time I have been taking others. Well tell me what u think ya. I like it simple not complicated like me :)

Suddenly I miss this particular day :/

I can't write everything here but I need to let it out.
I am afraid people might read and think what the hell?
I MUST not be selfish.
I can't be selfish. I hate being selfish. I love ppl too much, I am afraid they will show the slightest sign of hate towards me.
Oh Allah What AM I to do?

To try or not to try? Man I'm confused again :P Many things have happened in the past weeks k I think Im being unfair so here are the pics of my outings! Have been having a few conflicts with my supervisor lately. Bleaaahh whatever I am leaving soon.

Night outing with my SP darlings on Siti's Ride


Eating our hearts out at Ramen Ten

Feets Sore walking around in Town :)
I L.O.V.E yall soooo looking forward to New Year's Eve. Meanwhile Merry X'mas darlings.

Darla signing out.

Hey people.
Many2 things have been happening lately. I think I have found my direction please pray for me people so I can achieve what I need to prove my dad wrong. To my darling and sweetheart Sakinah, Adila & Fatimah. Thanks for the support. You've been my support from the time I was mentally ill till now that I'm better but kind of troubled. Thank you for making me strong.

' Ya Allah segala ujian mu dapat kan lah aku hdapi dengan penuh tabah dan penuh yakin akan pertolongan yang kamu kan beri'

I sayang all of u see u on new year's eve :)

Afraid.

Man.what am I gonna do? I really don't know.... Super confused. Ya Allah guide me =/

Stand Still Look Pretty


Hey I haven't update this for SOOOOO long. Well my job is great I am still doing part time. I have the best supervisor,seriously, alhamdulillah. He is soo nice. He has been a good listening ear and been a good friend to me though its only been 2 weeks knowing him. Well all I can say is I AM FREE NOW!

Finally I let everything go. He helped me to let go. I feel so light than I ever did before all the disappoinments,sadness, hatred, misses, the hole in my heart someone left me with built up so much anger or unhappiness I've hid for TOO LONG behind this facade of smiles & laughter. It made me broke down and I had to let it all out and tell my story. It actually make me feel better. I haven't got a listening ear for a long time. Sometimes its just better to tell someone you don't know at all than someone you know too well because you don't want them to see you as weak.

Thank you Sir. You'll NEVER read this but thank you. I can NEVER thank you enough. Even though we spoke for an hour, that one hour helped me a lot. I don't know how to return the favour.

The song stand still look pretty means a lot to me. It speaks my story :)


PS : One thing for sure I still miss and need my girls. I want them to be behind me all the time :)

Hey people,
I finally got a job. Alhamdulillah.

Ya Allah terima kasih kerana memberi aku pekerjaan yang mengizinkan aku untuk lakukan tanggungjawabku sebagai hambamu. Tetapi ya allah berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk sentiasa berpegang teguh padamu dan sentiasa bersujud di jalanmu. Janganlah kau jauh dariku walau sedetik pun kerana aku lemah dan senantiasa perlu pertolonganmu. Dengarlahkan doa ku ini ya allah. maafkan jika aku angkuh, sombong ataupun ingkar akan perintahmu.

By the way this new song on my blog by the way made me cry a lot. Therefore this blog entry in malay. Thank you Allah . Thank you Allah.

Ello darlings...
u can never guess what I am up to lately... hahah I've been working out like usual this is my 2nd day sticking to the taebo cardio workout. well another thing is i have been watching hindi videos on youtube.ahaha. I know hindi and me don't go together but sometimes the songs are just ahhhhh~ Lemme share my 2 fave hindi songs for the moment. Pardon me if they are kinda BASI / OLD










I know LAUGH ALL YOU WANT BUT I LOVE THEM ahahahah

MY WAY TO LOSING WEIGHT .... AGAIN

Hey pals.
Guess what? I've been eating healthy lately. WAY too healthy in fact that I gained some weight back.HORRORS! But hey I am trying to lose it all again. So a few minutes ago i just finished an hour long of cardio workout that worked too well that I am sweating like a horse! So I thought why not I share it with my friends who'd want to lose weight too! So here it is:

PART 1




PART 2



PART 3



PART 4



PART 5


I am gonna stick to this for like a week and I believe I am gonna lose all that weight again plus I must jaga my eating too. Care to join me to a healthy and better looking you? Man! I got to take a bath in awhile. WARNING this is worse than running 6 rounds of stadium. SO GOOD LUCK! Have fun!

Guess what I uploaded today.... My talentime moments. I remember that nite so well. Just keep wishing we all can still hang out together as a group , same place , same time. I love yall. I love y'all and I just hope my wishes come true.
Well enjoy the video and I was like reliving the performance nite.










You may wonder why I put it all on youtube... So that I can never lose it. Wish I could get back to those days.

Salam ppl!
Its been awhile since I've updated. Guess what? I went out with my girls on tuesday nite!!!Even though there were 4 of us we still had fun. Sorry Dila we didn't get to your place and thanks for the birthday message yesterday :) Makin tahun makin sikit orang haizzz sedih sedih maybe next year tinggal 2 orang je. ahah insyaallah bertambah lah ye.

PHOTO OP!!!!!

Introducing the cream ladies And.... the earth friendly green hijabis! ahaha


First up my place as usual...


Our favourite photo op spot @ Aisyah's place. Raya MUST OI!

Arizan's place. His son is super cute. He have a crush on aisyah. ahaha

At Zila's place.

Finally my fave photo op moment of this year's raya... OMG we all look so sweet la!

Hallo teman2 semua. insyaallah kalau tahun depan panjang umur murah rezeki kita akan bertemu lagi. Love you all. Slamat raya maaf zahir dan batin jika ada silap dan salah maaf kn lah ye. Makan minum halal kn ye... sayang korang semua insyaallah ketemu lagi.

Ya Allah terima kasih aku diberi panjang umur. aku dah 20 sekarang aku berdoa agar iman ku bertambah dan amalan ku berlipat ganda amin kuatkan lah aku ya allah :\

PS: THANKS SYAZ AND DINNA FOR THE WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY TODAY HOPEFULLY I DIDN"T BURN A HOLE IN YOUR POCKETS :)

EID MUBARAK EVERYBODY!

Nothing special this year... instead I feel pressured I really hope what I am doing is right. I will follow my heart. Thanks Sakinah for your advise. I can't really put up photos cause most of it is on my digicam AND cos' my lappy is having that trojan horse virus I am not willing to spread the "disease" to my digicam!

But I bluetooth in pics from my phone. Pray for me ppl. Pray that I get my dream job. I have applied up to 4 jobs today .Praying that I get some replies tomorrow. Hopefully an interview or so. AMIN.

My Parents

Sisters & Brothers


Brothers And Sisters

HEY ALL!

I just came back from iftar with my SP Pals. It was fun. I miss all of them. We buka at this "chinese" restaurant at Bugis then they went for sheesha. I didn't try sheesha though. I know what you must be thinking but HEY I don't even like it anyways can't even stand the smell.

Anyways here is a photo of all of them:

SP Pals


The Girls
More Pics next time have to retrieve pics from the rest. I forgot to bring my own digicam sheesh! These are from my handy dandy mobile phone. ahaha. nites! Watch the following advert its SO hilarious and creative. Syaz this is what I was talking about!

Hey i just got to share this with you girls who love make up. I don't like to wear any make up at all BUT this girl just got me interested in it. Maybe I can start wearing eye shadows like her or not! Maybe when it comes to big events... just maybe.Cause I am too lazy. I love this Adele - chasing pavement inspired look she comes up with it is FULL ON GLAMOUR she said it well. cause I love the song. Enjoy!

Hello I think I should share with you all. This song is so inspiring. It is made for Stand up for cancer. Many artists are together in this. The song is great for the ears too and uplifting for the spirits. Enjoy!

Why should I always be your target? Your punching bag?
Why you always make me cry? did I ever made your life difficult?
i don't deserve this from you. i don't know if i can forgive you. i am sorry.

Photos from yesterday Iftar. I had a blast girls too bad many can't make it. U girls are SO funny. I love our secret krumping ...crumping? whatever it is session hhaha it was superbly funny. I love you girls don't leave me. See you girls soon on Hari Raya I hope! Iftar was perfect... I hope Hari Raya moments will be the icing on the cake for this year.

We had lots of food. Thanks for bringing food to my home girls. Aisyah teach me how to make SUSHI! Thanks Sakinah for roti renjis, it was nice. Thanks Dila for cookies and Amy thanks for coming. THanks all for coming.






There are more photos but that's it for now. Tell me, we had fun didn't we? Cause I never laughed so hard in a long time since yesterday.

Thought I should do this though it is an ungodly hour for me and i am soooo tired today haven't had a break BUT I just wanna say thank you girls. Thank you for the great evening!