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어제 니 꿈 또 꿨어... 놔 줬는데... 그냥 어제 정말... 난 사실 그냥 내 마음 알려주고 싶은데... 근데 니가 듣기 싫어서... 그냥 화내고 욕했어.... 

난... 아무것도 아니야? 난 미친x?  난 디지탈 sound. 이상한소리만 만들었어..? 니말 이해 못함?난 아무것도 몰라??? 넌 슬퍼?

잘했어 정말... 

다 너이지? 난...??? 난 안슬퍼? 난 사람이 보고 싶지않아??? 난 사람 필요 없어??? 난 외롭지않아.

난 그냥 참았어. 난 널 매일 매일 보고 싶은데... 나도 외롭거든. 넌 날 기다렸어? 난 왜 모르지...?

넌 항상 단 여자들 찾고 있잖아... 우리 같이 있을때도 여러가지 앱 썼잖아. 돈도 냈어...

난 한국어 이해못함? 비상상태 있으면 난 ... 우와 난 한국에 3개월동안 살았어. 한국도 자주 갔어... 그래 니 lover 더 나아... 난 아무것도 아니야.. 내가 하는거 다 아무것도 아니였어... 미안 that i wasted your precious time. 난 타이밍 없어... but i did it all for you. 

You really broke me inside. But yes maybe you are right, i am crazy cause i still love you. After you have hurt me so much i still love you. I am crazy I guess. Still i love you and still i miss you but you are just happy on your own with another woman. I guess I have to find my own happiness too. I feel like you didnt see what i went through for you. Maybe you will one day.

사실 니가 나한테 확실한거 줬으면...난 한국 자주 가... 한국에 이사할거야. 넌... 말안했잖아 내가 어떻게 알아.... 난 begging 안할거야.. 근데 니가 나한테 왜 그렇지... 난 너한테 잘해준데 항상. it hurts me how you treat me like this till the end. 나도 니손 잡고 싶고 안고 싶고... 왜 몰라?

난 아무것도 몰라 나 잘 아는데 항상 친구들한테 말했어... Poor thing he is alone, im worried he is always alone , always lonely.  I wonder if he is ok... EVERY BLOODY DAY! I think of you! Thinking if you are okay. 

아 몰라... 난 최선을 다했어. 니가 그냥... 급해서 내 마음 다친거 생각안해... 그냥 자기 생각해...
Even till today i still pray you...And i still wanted to be your good friend but I think it will hurt me now so.. thats why i told you let's take a break. 밥줘 너 정말...내 입장에서 좀 생각해봐. To feel like you dont appreciate what I do for you... you are a good example of someone who has a blind heart. 

Actually you, you need to fix your heart. There's something very wrong with it. 

How do u expect me to let you go? You think its easy..? I love you it's not infatuation. But im just an invisible person. I don't match up to anyone next to u. I'm going crazy u know?.. with what you are doing... Honestly i dont know if i can wish u anything. Im trying my best to be okay. Even now i always think if you think that i have left u and that i dont love u anymore. i have always always love you.dang it, you make me want to cry again. what did i do so wrong to u?