Hi sayang

 Hi sayang,

What you did was unthinkable for me. i am sorry i can't reply to any of your messages now cause the pain is still fresh.The scar this time is deeper than whatever you have done in the past. Whenever I think of you with her, it hurts so much. Hurts because... you didn't care about how i feel. Cause till the end you only think about you, your happiness. 

Maybe i was stupid for putting so much hope in you and also believing that you'd eventually change. However when you got her, i felt it is so clear that i was a mere backup plan. Even when you hurt me, I still think about you, if you have taken your medicine? Are you okay? but i am sure you are beyond happy.

When i dont message you i worry if you would feel stressed but i just can't do it right now, i am not strong enough to face you nor her. The pain you brought this time is just too great that it will take a lot to heal.

I have stood by you throughout your good and difficult times.But you chose a woman who you only know for 2 weeks. Yesterday, i thought of all the things I did for you when we were together , next to each other. I helped you and i really took good care of you. I really did all my best for you but it is not enough. What hurts me most is your reaction. Till today when i remember it, my heart hurts like crazy and i want to cry.

My friends told me to never be friends with you again. But i know i dont want to lose you as a friend. I know you hurt me a lot but we went through a lot together. I was your home, i knew all your darkest side, you tell me everything, I was like your home or your shelter. No matter how your secrets or dark side hurts me , i accepted you because there's no denying that i love you.

Every time, i feel like i am not enough, i will remind myself that no, I did the best i could and i did all the good things for you. Just that whatever i gave will never be enough for someone who doesn't know how to appreciate.

I know you did this to many girls, i just want you to learn a lesson in your life so you can become a better person. An even kinder person, a person who is considerate of others' feelings , a person who cares for others as much as you care about yourself.

This girl that you are meeting, she will never know the pain you brought me. My heart still hurts when i think of her. She did nothing wrong but still it hurts to think you chose her over me.