I was really bored yesterday my lil' sis went to Johor with him~ bleargghh but anyways I texted Amy if she wanted to go to Henderson wave after work, so we decided to meet up when she called me at 4.30pm.
I changed my clothes then felt it was not right and changed again till I changed my outfit for 5 TIMES in 1 hour and totally did not feel like going out anymore suddenly all the tauntings about me being fat rushes through me and I cried for a good 1 hour before going out. I had to pull myself together and really pushed myself out I didn't know why it bothered me so much. I felt SO insecure worried that everybody see me as ugly. But anyways I fight the demons in me and still went out. applause. I think I need to lose a solid 10kilos so I don't feel this way anymore but how???
I really needed a breather and I got it. I had fun sitting & staring into the night sky.
PS: Don't worry about me I am still strong enough to handle this *bleep* at times I just breakdown but I can still pick up the pieces.
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