I Was Taught To Be A Man

Yesterday at around 10+ pm someone called to say that my grandpa was at his sakaratul maut. Short moments later he left us. I didn't cry when I heard this eventhough I panicked at first. But once I saw him and knew that it was true, emotions start to flood in. I cried hard and it was harder to read surah yasin knowing this time around he is really gone.

To watch him go today was the hardest , watch the burial and all, I thought I can't shed anymore tears but when I saw his face, tears rushes in and I can't control it. I love my grandpa and I will truly miss the days we spent together, now I miss my grandma more. They were the cutest couple I ever known and they showed me how hard life can be. My grandpa, he taught me that as the eldest daughter I have to be both a son & daughter. So pardon me if I am tough with people cause I was taught to be a man too.

My grandpa is the one that I love when my grandma was all "noisy". Despite the mistakes he made I still love him and wished that I haven't ignored him for the past 2 years.

2 days ago when I saw you in your hospital bed, I cried when my mom asked me to read yassin to you when you were still alive. That was when I realised I have forgiven you and I still cared a lot for you.

Today is my time to let you free. Goodbye atok, atiqah sayang atok, atiqah rindu atok, atiqah akan sentiasa berdoa agar atok dan nenek akan tenang disana dan dijauhi segala azab kubur.

al-fatihah.

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Very rare photo to find of my grandma & grandpa as y late grandma hate to take photo. I am glad you both were my grandparents you both taught me a great deal of life lessons. Love you forever.