Hello!

I am sooo counting down the days till we LEAVE!!! :/ :\ :) :D :P :D :D :D I am making many happy faces... :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

Is That HUGE enough? To tell you how glad I am?

You DO NOT understand me. And I am tired of making you understand. I am NOT your typical / average malay girl who wants to be attached or get married as soon as i step into the age range of 20s! I don't want all that yet.

I HAVE GOALS! I HAVE DREAMS! I WANT A CAREER! I WANNA BE SUCCESSFUL. I WANT SUCCESS. DO YOU GET THAT?

No all you wanna do is control me? Well you can't. So what if i wanna get married when i am 30! Love, boyfriend, marriage is ALL SECONDARY TO ME. In this life all I wanna be is reach for my goals and make my faith go stronger and prepare for my after life. That's all and nothing more.

You better becareful before I collect enough money and run off to Australia. I am sick and tired OK? I don't want any boyfriend in my life okay? NOt now not sooner. And the only person who ever believed in me is gone! No one believes in my ability than her! Listen to this song. I love it.

Being sick is no fun at all... I'm tired of going to the clinic. I'm tired of my pay getting cut! But I thank Allah for one thing. my life & being called LOVE twice plus an "I miss u" from my girlfriends. I feel blessed. I can't wait for Ramadhan.I've drawn her up maybe its time for u ppl to see...

Her: " i miss yousss are simply not enough!! (:"

Now i truly miss her

O I drew something for the guitarist of Panic!'s Birthday

Wish me luck in sending it to him in time....

Now more wedding dress:

3 more weeks and WE ARE OUT!

K i know I am not beautiful but u don't have to say it right? Ya maybe i have horrible skin cause i have tonnes of sins. Maybe you're right and it hurts to know that! I've had it tough and u make everything even harder for me. I am suffering and u don't know. I haven't been well mentally nor physically but FAITH keeps me strong.

I cried my eyes out in every prayer, I know someday everything will be answered... that you'll never know cause all u care is about yourself!

Sorry ppl. Feeling very emotional. But anyways I've made another creation for u to comment.

So what u guys think? Tag me up!

One more creation... is here!

I know it looks kinda plain but listen to my vision first! I thought the material that it'd be made of will be rich and grand. Like gold lace over white satin or white / silver lace over white satin... There u are enjoy my new design. More to come:) Watch out for it!!!
In case if u are wondering what's that that is holding the veil... its a small hat.- later...

hey ppl as promised the illustration of the back view of the previous dress + an additional one new creation... tada!

Back view of previous dress i've posted.


My New Creation!!!

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Thanks Amy for the comments / criticism. I am making something different from the usual that's in the market. You see I don't want to make big gowns like those normal wedding gowns. Because I want this collection of mine to be just simple, modern and clean-cut wedding dresses with a touch of glamour. Maybe I'll try designing big gowns later. Thanks again.

So here's my next design, maybe I'll draw the view of the back tonight.

Don't forget to leave your comments on my tagboard:) - Ateeq

So now I've decided to put all my designs online for people to comment. for now I'm sooo into designing wedding dresses (don't know why) but anyways here's my 2nd wedding dress design. It is ahem copyrighted.heheh. Enjoy commenting and criticising!

This is the plain one...

This is the patterned ones.

So ppl please tell me which one do u prefer?

Cheers:)

Look at this! I designed and illustrated it. Anyone pls come & comment!Supposedly a simple wedding dress! Ok So how was 07/07/07? I'll update u more on Live Earth Day. All I can say is I wore green!!! The concert was awesome esp. Linkin Park in Tokyo + Fall Out Boy in NY??!!!

I'm taking a risk... But I got to get this out of my system.
I swear to god she has nothing better to do!

As I look out the foggy window of the bus, i was on my way to visit my best friend. Listening to the sound of Panic! At the disco, All-american rejects and Red Jumpsuit Apparatus not forgetting MCR.

Walking was far... but I'd walk a thousand miles for her, I love her too much. The moment I'm there I visit my grandma first then hers followed by my uncles and grandpa. I wanted to cry badly... my tears wanted to roll but I can't cos' my dad is there and I can't show a tad bit of emotion though my heart wants too. Here are the photos of my trip visiting my friend's grave. i thank my dad for bringing me.

I guess he knows how much I miss her since i keep dreaming about her in my sleep. Thanks dad. You'll never read this but I never felt loved by u before but now i know its those little things that counts.








A pathetic bus stop with only one bus that comes to it only on hari raya and after chinese prayers.








This is my uncle's.







Yup that's my dad.


When I went there and saw a lot of grave's that are not visited i felt like crying and when I see those of children's and babies my heart feels heavier. especially I still remember one of a little girl where the family left her umbrella on her tomb stone.

The experience really taught me a big lesson in life... and I found one more hobby. Talking to the dead and giving salam to them. I made a promise to myself to visit them every month. insyaallah. Ya allah please grant my wishes and prayers and save me. Save them. PLEASE stop my grandpa from marrying another woman. I love my grandma sooooo much and I don't want any other woman taking her place cos' she was special and WILL ALWAYS be.