GOT7

Recently, I am into a Korean boy band called "GOT7". I am secretly an IGOT7. LOL. I know I feel too old for this. But these boys are just adorable. Besides I have never ever really became a true fan of a band in like a few years now,the last one I really loved was Shinee & B2st. I actually can't wait to see the Markson show tomorrow! Can you believe it? I knew Got7 last year. I've only grown interested in them this June, why? I was curious and clicked on the Markson show on youtube and I fell in love with Mark. He is so dashing, so mysterious yet his laughter is the cutest thing on earth. However, I feel Mark comes in a pair with Jackson! Jackson is the total opposite of Mark which is a totally good thing because they complement each other, like Jackson is too noisy and Mark is quiet so they balance each other nicely, when you throw in Eric Nam it is the perfect combination! The chemistry is just tops!

I knew JJ project and couldn't wait for their debut, I watched Dream High2 and fell in love with JB and Junior. I was very very upset when they came back with 5 other members at first I was like WTH. I felt that the other members were overshadowing the 2 members. However now that I love Markson, I've learnt to love and embrace them as a whole. I can see they work well together. GOT7 forever. The fact that 3 members are able to speak English fluently is just superb. I wish to see the Amerithaikong bunch appearing together more. I wish Young Jae would speak more on screen. Even Mark as well, I somehow feel that Mark aside from being shy and an introvert, I feel that because the rest are too rowdy or talks more they overpower him and he chose to stay quiet. LOL but I still love him for who he is. On another note can wait to watch them on ASC tomorrow. MARKSON RULES!!! GOT7 fighting!

PS: I think Bambam should be given a chance to join them on ASC!

RAMADAN DAY 12

Today marks the twelfth day of Ramadan, it is also the beginning of a school term as an educator at the same school for 6 years honestly I have lost my spark and do not want to be doing this anymore. I am so exhausted of doing the same routine. I started Ramadan happy but now I feel depressed all over again like before Ramadan. I have no idea why I've stopped sewing as well. I used to love sewing so much that just the thought of it makes me delighted. My only escape is to sleep. And for someone who doesn't favour sleeping so much, I've been sleeping a lot as well.

I am in need of a fresh environment. I want to just do things that I love. Oh, Allah please grant me patience in my sad heart. Ramadan has been a fruitful time for me to get closer to you ya Allah. The night time makes me happy the most as I can do congregational prayers. I think my life is lacking in activities as well. I feel blessed that I'm in a relaxed mode but at the same time I feel down because I wish I can hang out more. My friends and I used to hang out a lot when we were younger. Nowadays meeting with them even for a short while makes me the happiest. Sometimes I wish I can go back to the time when i was in secondary school.I had a blast as I get to meet my friends daily and I can honestly say that is the highest point in my life and nothing can beat that time thus far. Even though my dad was in depression back then, no matter how stressful life was, my friends were there. I didn't have money, didn't come from a wealthy family but still I am happy. Friends were like my drug that numb me from all the pain. Nowadays, with that gone, sleep is like a drug. O Allah, I hope I can find that spark again in life. I'm so exhausted ya Allah. So exhausted.

However, I want to thank Allah for my last trip to Korea. It brought back the smile and glow on my face. I truly felt happy again even though it was for a mere 3 weeks. Those 3 weeks are what I look back on. Ya Allah give me the strength to continue being a good Muslim and living life to the fullest.