Ya Allah.
Taking this leap of faith is not easy. The decision made is easier, however, the act is terrifying. The only thing I am worried about is not being able to find a job after leaving something that I have done for the last 7 years. That’s considered almost a decade of my career. However, when I think of how I would spend the rest of my life in this place not knowing what you have written for me out there brings about a sense of regret. I imagined myself to be older and waking up doing this job every year without fail and the conclusion that I’ve arrived at is that I would feel like I have wasted my life.
Teaching is not really a waste because you touch lives every day and you might change someone’s life. Mould a child to become successful individuals. However, my last 7 years in this school, year in and year out has become a blur of events. My life has become a routine and I just know that I am not living my life to the fullest. I am not soaking in the atmosphere and everything. Life has no excitements it has become pretty mundane. It is as if I have hit a roadblock. The only happiness to me is the moments I spend with my family and friends after work. I love jogging or having long walks with my sister. I love watching television with my brothers. I love meeting my friends.
There are like no changes in my life, I need change. Even though this journey is as terrifying as it seems I know I must do it. For change after 7 years of routine is good. Only Allah please don’t let me worry too much about my finances for you will supply me with sufficient. As a Muslim, ya Allah I know you will always watch over me and provide. I also have to believe that you will not give a burden that is too heavy for me. I believe that you have bigger and better plans for me. Give me courage and bravery. Make me strong. Hasbunallahu Wa ni’mal wakeel.
I hope in 4 months time, I will be back here blogging from another country. INSYAA ALLAH
