Love Note

It's been over a day or two, that I don't hear from him. I know that he needs that space and time that he craves for. Maybe he is hurt,sick , he is stressed and angry.

Ya Allah please look after him for me. Please free him from all the pain that he is feeling. I cannot bear to see him in pain or stress. I want him to be happy. The other day, when we fought and I became the source of his pain I really regretted it. He is always in my heart and mind. I wish he knows how precious he is to me. I wish I was physically near to him. So I could help him. I know that he could hurt me emotionally or physically but I am not afraid.

June will be the sixth month that I know him, sometimes I wonder how did I fall for him so fast and so hard. But ya allah, he makes me very happy. I feel the deepest connection with him even though we have never met in person. Right now , i just want to hug him tight and tell him everything will be alright and that he shouldn't be terrified of life that I will be here for him forever,  no matter what our relationship may be...  Complicated , friends , husband and wife ... I will always be here for him.  He can count on me.  Baby,  I know you are scared but I will always be here I promise. 

Baby,  많이 보고 싶어. I want to tell the world how much I love you , but I am afraid you won't like it.... 베이비 사랑해.. 넘 그리워해서 안아주고 싶어 . I hope you are okay wherever you are and whatever you are doing. I love you my sayang ❤️💙

Live in the present

I resigned my fate to Allah.  I am amazed at my capacity to love someone despite knowing his darker side . I still love him the same and nothing changed. I just pray he will have a peace of mind and heart in this life and also I pray hard I can call you to jannah in the hereafter that's how much I love you . 
Yes baby,  I know you might be reading this someday or somewhere. Please know that I will love you as much and as long as I can