Friday, August 22, 2014

실망했다

주화 안녕하세용~~~~
오늘은 내 두번째 일기 공개해요. ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
시험이 어때요? 언제 끝나요? 요즘에는 생각이 많아요.
어제 내 여동생은 불편한 이야기를 말했어요. 여동생의 친구는 한국에 갔다고 직업은 찾고 싶었지만 못찾아요. 지금 난 이런 생각하고 있어요 "어때요? 나 아르바이트 찾을수있을까?"
 많이 고민하잖아요. 이건 너무 힘들다.

요즘에 언니는 많이 기도해요. 매일 매일 하나님에서 나한테
도와줘요.저의 고민 너의 고만이랑 비숫해요. 나도 한국에서 일하고 싶어요. 한국에 나의 두번 집 처럼. 근데 난 포기할 수 없어요 노력할께요. 화이팅! 열심히 일하고 있습니다. 그 꿈에는 꼭 잡아요!

내 여동생은 왜 나의 꿈을 못이해해서 대실망해요.

Monday, June 23, 2014

나의 좋아하는 가수

주화 안녕하세요!!!
ㅎㅎㅎ 이게 너무 신기하다! 첫 이야기예요. 오늘 난 모든 사람한테 나의 좋아하는 가수 알려주고 싶어요. 난 다비치 정말 좋아해요.

다비치의 노래들이 진짜 좋아요. ㅋㅋㅋ 난 슬픈 노래를 다 좋아해요. 그들의 노래 들어면서 가슴이도 아파요. ㅎㅎㅎ 이해리 목소리가 더 잘해요. 강민경 보다. ㅋㅋㅋ 강민경 더 예뻐요. 하지만 이해리의 실력은 더 높아요.

나도 이해리 처럼 되고 싶어요. 나의 좋아하는 노래를 "두번 해어지는 일". 이 노래 들어면 나의 요섭하고 서섭(내 애완 동물) 생각이 났어여. 이 노래를 너무 슬퍼요. ㅠㅠㅠㅠ 아 많이 쓰고 싶었지만 시간이 너무 늦었어요. 눈도 아파요. 내일 계속 쓸거에요. 안녕히주무세요

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

The eldest

It is tough being the eldest.
Especially when it comes to financial issues. You bear most of the cost. I am mentally exhausted trying to save money. Sometimes my money don't feel like it is mine. technically it is not mine. It belongs to Allah. I feel helpless especially when my parents are spendthrifts. Oh Allah please help me. Please let my mum realise that she is not managing her financial well. I feel suffocated ya Allah. Ya Allah bless us with wealth. I want to be able to do more and be more comfortable. It is tough ya allah. This is tough. Make me strong. make me strong. make me strong. That is why Ya Allah I never thought of settling down when there are so many unfinished issues at home.

Monday, April 07, 2014

Yoseob my greatest love and companion (7.4.2014)

Dear yoseob,
I miss you so much. I wanted you to know that i am very sorry, you fell. It was all my fault. If I didn't take you out of your cage to read quran with or for you and listen to you that you did not want to stay in my hands while i read it. You might be alive now. But what can I do sayang? Allah loves you more. I hope you remember me my darling. Please wait for me at the heaven's gate. I might be slow to get there but I will call for you when I do reach it. I still have a long way to go sayang. That is if Allah does not take me young. I know this is your destiny and fate my dear, but I cannot imagine living without you. I know sooner or later you will die, but I didn't expect you to go this way. I love you too much to let you go. Yes, people will laugh but what makes hamsters different from cats and dogs? Because they are small? You should not judge by their size. Yes hamsters are small but I could feel that you loved me as much as I love you. I cannot forget you my dear. You will be the last hamster for me, I can't bear to part with you. I pray and pray that we will meet again I will call you my dear. I will call your name. Please pray the best for me to my love. Pray that I get to do what I want most in life. That's all I ask from you and most of all, I ask you to forgive me. Forgive me. Forgive me. Forgive me.