Unlucky in love

Sometimes I look at my sister, I feel envious. Why? She found the love of her life too easily. While me...I always, always don't get the ones that I love. My first love whom I still think or dream of on some days. He is one I will never forget. I didn't and will never get the chance to tell him that I love him. He will always be one of the best memories I have in my life.

This second love that I have , that is distorted in soooo many ways. One that I cannot pin any hopes or dreams on. One that I have to be selfless. I have never been selfish but I have to be even more selfless in this one. I love him ya allah. I pray for him daily. He is far ya allah, far from me. But I want you to protect and look over him for me all the time. I know ya allah, he may not be the right person for me. But allah, if we are really not made for each other... Let him meet someone who loves him as much as I love him. Or meet, someone who will love him even more than I do. Someone who will accept him for everything that he is , his flaws and his perfection. Someone who will take good care of him. There is only one request I ask of you and I will never stop asking. I will never state it here. But I want only the best for him. Ya allah, please show him that my love for him is true and sincere. I can't believe I am crying while typing this. These days, I am not one that is easy to cry and break. I guess he means that much to me. Oh Allah, strengthen me to face whatever it is i have to. Please protect the man who owns my heart. With that, I love you and I miss you 박주호.

Love note for ㅂㅈㅎ

To love is to be selfless,  to love is to care about others more than yourself.  To love may be the most painful thing for some. But love doesn't always have to hurt.  My love is to heal the broken you... May u heal my sayang. I miss your face, your voice ,your smile and our petty arguments.  I miss u