Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Body Talk

This has made me feel better about myself, to appreciate my body and reboost my self-esteem. But I will still not change the fact that I do need to lose weight for I am 2 kg overweight so yeah... to be healthy!





Head, shoulders, knees, and toes . . . introducing six women and their exceptional bodies. By Kristina Grish

JENNIE SOMOGYI 29, principal dancer with the New York City Ballet

I’ve been a professional dancer for 13 years. I was on pointe at 8 years old, just one year after I started dancing, because my ballet teacher thought I was strong for my age. She told me never to pamper my feet. A lot of dancers tape their toes, but she said I shouldn’t: If I was ever without tape, I wouldn’t be able to dance. It’s amazing what you can get used to when you’re driven to do what you love. I sweat for 13 hours a day. It’s repetitive: My feet swell, and my blisters bleed. I used to wear closed-toe shoes and not let anyone see my feet. I have a lot of friends who aren’t dancers, and they can’t get over what mine look like. But as I got older, I accepted them: This is what I do. Besides, my short, fat, stubby, awful toes make me keep a sense of humor about my body!



TRACY LEWIS 33, firefighter

Of the roughly 11,500 firefighters in New York City, only 31 are women. My first year, I ran up 13 flights of stairs wondering how I’d get to the top. But I made sure I stayed right behind the officer, while the other guys straggled behind. Now, six years later, I’m the only woman in my firehouse, along with 11 men. My team carries the hoses: When a 50-foot-long hose is filled with water, it can be extremely heavy. I do pull-ups, push-ups, and bicep curls to tone. But I don’t want to be built like a guy. Fifty percent of my job is muscular strength; the rest is cardiovascular endurance and technique. Firefighting is about practice and training. I knew a guy from the military who thought he would ace the physical test just because he had huge muscles—and he had to retake it twice! The first thing female recruits say is that they’re not strong enough to be firefighters. But how do they know? We train for three months, working as hard as our male counterparts. If the men do 30 push-ups, we do them, too. My position wasn’t handed to me; I worked for it. When I look at my body, I see years of training.


Me :This woman have helped me to love my muscles that my sister alway scrutinise and criticise about! My muscles from my past martial arts background have made me strong so I shouldn't be ashame of it!



MAGGIE STOVICKOVA 31, swimmer

My friends always comment on my back muscles: One says they’re so sturdy, he could hang his clothes from them. I’m shaped like a V, so I have a narrow waist—when I see skinny girls in bathing suits, they look like skin and bones to me. My muscles are visible, and you can feel them. But I’ve made so many sacrifices to be this fit. I began swimming when I was 8, five times a week for two hours a day. I trained so often I never saw my family. I never played with friends or went to parties; instead, I competed. I won the national championship for my age group 20 times in my home country of Slovakia—I have two shoeboxes filled with medals! At 16, I switched to triathlons. Swimming 12 miles a day was mentally tiring, so I expanded to running and biking and earned six national titles. I finally left my family behind when I came to the States at age 24, and I didn’t see my father for five years. But on the up side, I get to travel the world going to races. I’d have never seen South Africa or Madrid otherwise. I’m living my dream, and when I get old and lose my muscles, my bones will still be strong, so I’ll always keep my shape!
There are 6 women... I have posted the first 3 go and see all 6 of these inspiring women here>>> http://lifestyle.msn.com/mindbodyandsoul/womenintheworld/staticslideshowmc.aspx?cp-documentid=859038&imageindex=1

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Thank you to All for your wishes & CAKE!!!

Thanks to Siti,Hakim,Joey,Khai,Li Shan and Dinna for the cake :)
Thanks to the rest who wished me...
Adila Thanks for hearing me out...birthdays are meant for happiness but mine ended in tears. I wish I was stronger to say

SO WHAT?!?!

to those who demoralise me based on my physique. SO WHAT if i was fat! So What...



Yaaa as promised raya photos.


My mum and us!

Mum And Dad



My pretty cousin & I



Monday, October 15, 2007

Since I turn 19 today. Yaaa happy birthday to me... i actually forgot my birthday. I actually wanna wish everybody Eidul Mubarak. Insyaallah moga-moga hari raya ini bukan hari raya yang terakhir bagi kita semua. Doa2 dapat lagi kita menyambut ramadhan di tahun hadapan
-amin- I wish I can turn back time to be a better person~

I forgot to load new pics of Hari Raya. I'll show u tomorrow plus the cookies I made:)
Alhamdulillah.ya allah. alhamdulillah...

Monday, October 01, 2007



OUT WITH MY GIRLS
On the 29th last Saturday I went out with my girls to break our fast together. It was fun. We reserved a table at Chai Chee Seafood. We haven't been out together for months sooo I really missed all of them. I wore her shoes & necklace. Even though she's gone we still feel her presence in us. We laughed a lot. We chatted a lot , we window shop a lot at Geylang Serai Bazaar Ramadhan. It was GREAT!
We had rice, tom yum soup,lemon chicken, char kway sotong, beef kailan & hotplate beancurd. Which all adds up to $76+ but each has to pay around $11.

Too much action on our side!


Vogue!
I had a great time girls:) Looking forward to Hari Raya!!!! Looking forward to renting a vehicle...Looking forward to Sarah being our driver:))))LoVe

Tomatoe & Cat-Mad:))


With my Samiii :)

Monday, September 17, 2007

I am SUPERRRRR TIRED. Am not getting enough rest or sleep. Life is hard but I have to deal with it. Whatever you did to me is scarred in me. I can't believe you'd have the heart to do it to me! I can care about you only less. I hate you. why victimise your own blood?

Ya Allah help me...make me grow only stronger after this. Please protect me from all the evil in the world especially in this beautiful month..Protect me...save me :\


Friday, September 14, 2007

HELLO
Selamat Berpuasa !!! / Happy Fasting To All
Today is the 2nd Day of Ramadhan. YAY!... School's gonna start in a week's time. I hope I am ready to lead my team to victory.

I miss all of my girls. I hope we all can meet up soon. I wanna go Geylang with ALL OF YOU 11 people and have fun! I wanna break fast with all of you... I know maybe some of you has forgotten all of the fun we had together... all of the laughter... Maybe some of these photos may bring back some memories...




2004



2005

2006
Things may never be the same people but we sure can try...
Damn I miss my tomato,sami, amy,esah,zila,syazana, wak2 .... conclusion I miss u all more than anything in the world. This Ramadhan I miss Fad more:(

Sunday, September 09, 2007

I'm kinda getting sick of not getting to see my e-mails in hotmail!!!! The network here is sucky...Well that's what you get for free wireless...

Well I wanna wish my friend Fatimah . A Big Happy Birthday!!!Wahhhh org tu da 19 sey sey sey!!!! Ohhhh I miss the days we go to our defense classes together. I miss our class and maybe our trainer or not! hahaha

I miss my girlfriendsssss.... hahaha Ramadhan's around the corner. All the temptations and all our needs ,wants everythingg!! have to be CURB! I hope muslims all over the world especially the young ones respect that month that we honour the most. If they don't than what can I say other than pray for you so you'd change:) insya allah...

Thursday, August 30, 2007

Heyyy... Look who's birthday is it today... It is Ryan Ross ( Panic! At The Disco) haha... Happy 21st Birthday now that your really legal!




Tomorrow Happy 19th to Syazzy!!!! Wish you all the best in life... And semua yang dilakukan diredhai Allah. Long life and murah rezeki -Amin-



Oh on 2nd September to Spencer Smith Of Panic! At The Disco. Happy 20th!!! 3 hours lack of sleep results to this. Good right? You know why I do vectors of them(Panic!)?Cause I really am sending it to them:) They deserve it for the good music:)Next will be Paramore.

I gtg cause my butt is aching from sitting on this hard wooden chair they have in libraries!!! Besides I can still feel the vadai I ate in the morning and it is like 4:29 pm?What the heck right?

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Hejab




I am a bit pissed. Why does woman who wears Hejab has difficulty in finding jobs? especially those require uniform. People come on... hejab doesn't hinder our movements nor affects our work! What difference does wearing a hejab and not wearing one ,with the work we are doing?

Look at me! Look at all those woman who wears hejab and DO SPORTS! Look at us we can still succeed , hejab did not stop us. We can still go far in life. Just because we are proud of being a muslim woman doesn't mean we cannot do our work well. In fact we work harder, we work sincerely to prove to people that we too can make it!

I don't go for jobs that requires us to take off our hejab while working than putting it back on after work. WHAT IS THIS??? Hejab is not something to be treated like that! It should be treated with higher respect. Sigh... Why are there still companies out there who cannot employ woman wearing their hejabs? World have change people! It is time you change your point of view too.

Conclusion:

HEJAB DO NOT AFFECT THE WORK WE DO! It is just a mark of piety and that this simple piece of cloth is to preserve my dignity.

Furthermore i believe that we must not sacrifice our religion for a mere job, there is a lot of other jobs . We are not DESPERATE. One door closes another opens! it could be better than the first one. Insyaallah.

Furthermore I can still be vogue in my hejab too :p hahahahahaha
hahaha

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Ya Allah.... Help Me.... I am LOST!!!! I .... don' t know what to say or do anymore... SAVE ME ;(

I CAN'T LET ANYBODY GO.... I CAN'T. I SIMPLY CAN'T :(
Grandpa! I AMMM SO DISAPPOINTED IN YOU. YOU ARE THE ONLY GUY I LOOK UP TO.
NOW I DON'T KNOW. I'LL CRY MY EYES OUT IF YOU DO IT.

I ONLY HAVE ONE GRANNY AND SHE DIED AND I LOVE HER VERY MUCH.SHE CANNOT BE REPLACED!!!!

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

PEOPLE! PEOPLE! WE'VE GOT 3 DAYS LEFT! 2 IF NOT COUNTING TODAY!!!!

SP!!!!! SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC! HOW MUCH I MISS YOU!!!!


I've been dancing , jumping and all those crazy things people do when they are CRAZILY HAPPY


It has been a LOOOONG 4 Months RAce But I've Made It. I've SURVIVED!!! Thank You Allah... I am leaving in 3 days FINALLY .MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA ;) We've GOT TO CELEBRATE!!! CHEERIOS


Cake Anyone?

Thursday, August 09, 2007

Hey people ever felt like... U and your once good friend don't seem to click anymore? I don't know what's going on with me but I just feel at times I am better off alone... I feel like crying... I feel LOST. I just hope Allah will guide me. Sometimes I just feel I don't know what I want in this life and who I am ANYMORE. But I know what I am looking for.

Ohhh I did Amy a makeover she look like this after the make over

So how? do I qualify as good at giving someone a makeover?


We picked style no.6 out of all the 6 styles I planned for her which is a long dress & belt + jeans
yay! I promise to pass u more pics Amy!
Okay I wanna wish HAK HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY THE VIDEO AT THE BOTTOM IS FOR YOU!

Monday, August 06, 2007

Hi... Went out with my girls on saturday. There is a video I made out of the photos we took! Enjoy girls=) On Sunday gave Amy a makeover but photos not uploaded yet. Whatever it is watch the video my 3 girls!

Monday, July 30, 2007


Hello!

I am sooo counting down the days till we LEAVE!!! :/ :\ :) :D :P :D :D :D I am making many happy faces... :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D


Is That HUGE enough? To tell you how glad I am?

Saturday, July 21, 2007

You DO NOT understand me. And I am tired of making you understand. I am NOT your typical / average malay girl who wants to be attached or get married as soon as i step into the age range of 20s! I don't want all that yet.

I HAVE GOALS! I HAVE DREAMS! I WANT A CAREER! I WANNA BE SUCCESSFUL. I WANT SUCCESS. DO YOU GET THAT?

No all you wanna do is control me? Well you can't. So what if i wanna get married when i am 30! Love, boyfriend, marriage is ALL SECONDARY TO ME. In this life all I wanna be is reach for my goals and make my faith go stronger and prepare for my after life. That's all and nothing more.

You better becareful before I collect enough money and run off to Australia. I am sick and tired OK? I don't want any boyfriend in my life okay? NOt now not sooner. And the only person who ever believed in me is gone! No one believes in my ability than her! Listen to this song. I love it.




Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Being sick is no fun at all... I'm tired of going to the clinic. I'm tired of my pay getting cut! But I thank Allah for one thing. my life & being called LOVE twice plus an "I miss u" from my girlfriends. I feel blessed. I can't wait for Ramadhan.I've drawn her up maybe its time for u ppl to see...


Her: " i miss yousss are simply not enough!! (:"
Now i truly miss her

O I drew something for the guitarist of Panic!'s Birthday



Wish me luck in sending it to him in time....

Now more wedding dress:

3 more weeks and WE ARE OUT!

Sunday, July 15, 2007

K i know I am not beautiful but u don't have to say it right? Ya maybe i have horrible skin cause i have tonnes of sins. Maybe you're right and it hurts to know that! I've had it tough and u make everything even harder for me. I am suffering and u don't know. I haven't been well mentally nor physically but FAITH keeps me strong.

I cried my eyes out in every prayer, I know someday everything will be answered... that you'll never know cause all u care is about yourself!

Sorry ppl. Feeling very emotional. But anyways I've made another creation for u to comment.

So what u guys think? Tag me up!

Saturday, July 14, 2007

One more creation... is here!

I know it looks kinda plain but listen to my vision first! I thought the material that it'd be made of will be rich and grand. Like gold lace over white satin or white / silver lace over white satin... There u are enjoy my new design. More to come:) Watch out for it!!!
In case if u are wondering what's that that is holding the veil... its a small hat.- later...

Thursday, July 12, 2007

hey ppl as promised the illustration of the back view of the previous dress + an additional one new creation... tada!

Back view of previous dress i've posted.


My New Creation!!!

Tag me up!leave your notes...

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Thanks Amy for the comments / criticism. I am making something different from the usual that's in the market. You see I don't want to make big gowns like those normal wedding gowns. Because I want this collection of mine to be just simple, modern and clean-cut wedding dresses with a touch of glamour. Maybe I'll try designing big gowns later. Thanks again.


So here's my next design, maybe I'll draw the view of the back tonight.


Don't forget to leave your comments on my tagboard:) - Ateeq

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

So now I've decided to put all my designs online for people to comment. for now I'm sooo into designing wedding dresses (don't know why) but anyways here's my 2nd wedding dress design. It is ahem copyrighted.heheh. Enjoy commenting and criticising!



This is the plain one...

This is the patterned ones.
So ppl please tell me which one do u prefer?
Cheers:)

Monday, July 09, 2007

Look at this! I designed and illustrated it. Anyone pls come & comment!Supposedly a simple wedding dress! Ok So how was 07/07/07? I'll update u more on Live Earth Day. All I can say is I wore green!!! The concert was awesome esp. Linkin Park in Tokyo + Fall Out Boy in NY??!!!


Friday, July 06, 2007

I'm taking a risk... But I got to get this out of my system.
I swear to god she has nothing better to do!

Monday, July 02, 2007



As I look out the foggy window of the bus, i was on my way to visit my best friend. Listening to the sound of Panic! At the disco, All-american rejects and Red Jumpsuit Apparatus not forgetting MCR.

Walking was far... but I'd walk a thousand miles for her, I love her too much. The moment I'm there I visit my grandma first then hers followed by my uncles and grandpa. I wanted to cry badly... my tears wanted to roll but I can't cos' my dad is there and I can't show a tad bit of emotion though my heart wants too. Here are the photos of my trip visiting my friend's grave. i thank my dad for bringing me.

I guess he knows how much I miss her since i keep dreaming about her in my sleep. Thanks dad. You'll never read this but I never felt loved by u before but now i know its those little things that counts.








A pathetic bus stop with only one bus that comes to it only on hari raya and after chinese prayers.








This is my uncle's.







Yup that's my dad.


When I went there and saw a lot of grave's that are not visited i felt like crying and when I see those of children's and babies my heart feels heavier. especially I still remember one of a little girl where the family left her umbrella on her tomb stone.

The experience really taught me a big lesson in life... and I found one more hobby. Talking to the dead and giving salam to them. I made a promise to myself to visit them every month. insyaallah. Ya allah please grant my wishes and prayers and save me. Save them. PLEASE stop my grandpa from marrying another woman. I love my grandma sooooo much and I don't want any other woman taking her place cos' she was special and WILL ALWAYS be.

Monday, June 04, 2007

I miss my girls. The thought of not getting to meet my girls suddenly struck me that I now miss my Faddyna a whole lot. I can cry at the thought of her. I've moved on my friend but sometimes I regret that we can't talk or hang out with each other anymore. Maybe this is where Allah wanna test my strength. I'll pray for you my friend... you'll always have me...

I hate my internship... I miss my girls... I want a baby... I miss my babies... I love you Ali & Chomel. I love you till the day I die. And I'll always love him till the day I die...

Ya Allah keep me strong and make my faith stronger. I love you.

Friday, March 30, 2007

Hello people.

Yup I am sleepin' over AMH. Btw... I don't know why I think I am missing arwah Fadinah. I dreamt of her yesterday... She and I was at some shop looking at birthday cakes to buy for... Aisyah. ... Maybe I should stop here before I get emotional...

Bye Bye

Thursday, March 22, 2007

PEOPLE THE 16 YEAR OLD ME IS BACK!!!

The happy-go-lucky one! Thank you Allah. Okay I am happy because I passed my exam not so great but at least I passed alhamdulillah. I got to meet my girls. I've got a new meaning of life. I'm so fueled up and ready to go and no one can stop me. haha.
Well wanna know what happened during these holidays. Well I won't tell. Today I got a compliment from someone haha saying I look like a thirteen year old...THAT made MY day. I wanna laugh and roll on the floor but I can't cos' I'm in the library.

I wanna holler at my girls who went out with me yesterday. One of the best times I had since like ever. Thank you. We went down to beach road. Man, I sooo didn't know that there is such things as roti john MACARENA or roti john BRAD PITT. What's that suppose to mean? Oh and you guys should know Angelina just adopted another child, Pax Thien. Doesn't she like totally rocks???:Okay enough talking pics now!

Foods galore...

Sarah lookin' all fierce
sweeties



Saturday, March 03, 2007

Hey peeps.
Guess i'm back for this little while. Actually just to tell you guys a very very very bad news. I just lost my grandma. My beloved grandmother.When? On the 24th of Feb meaning last Saturday and we all thought we're going to lost grandpa on the same day too after my grandma. It was freaking scary. I can tell you when it comes to life and death its no fun. If you have a life live life.

I saw my grandma first in the mortuary. I haven't seen her for some time & when I saw her lifeless body I'm kind of in disbelief but from Allah we came to Allah we return. All that rushing to the emergency ward wasn't worth it somehow I knew I was gonna lose her before we got there.

To my grandma : I will always love you...I will always remember you.I forgive you. May Allah bless your soul... Al- Fatihah.

To my grandpa: Please don't go too soon I love you too much to let go for now. I'm not ready. Please stay with me grandpa. Please be strong...I know it'll be hard without her. You lost your wives twice I know. Allah is testing you.Be strong like I'm tryna be

I'm gonna see my grandpa soon. Well this is fate. I just lost a bestfriend like a few months ago, now my grandma. Subhanallah... I'm being truly tested. Aku redha ya allah.Aku redha...

Friday, February 09, 2007

Hey people.
maybe i should forget everything.
Everything. Everything.
Forget I've even liked Ryan ross.
Cos' he no longer exists only his music lives.
maybe i should forget this blog even exists.
I'm tired of writing about me.
I don't even know what to do with this life anymore.
I'm not sick of it I'm just bored.
lonely.I don't know where to begin.
I'm feeling sad but I don't know why?
Every night I'll go to sleep crying...
I feel there's like no meaning in this life.
Maybe this life is just fo us to live & die.
Maybe i live for allah & allah only.
Somebody please bring meaning to this life.
Bring that girl I want to meet before I die.
Let her fill the emptiness that's eating me up inside.

Maybe love of that girl-guy sort wasn't meant for me,
But the kind of love I really want is from a child you see.
even though she's not mine, in my heart she'll always be.
My Ulfah Muyassarah hurry up.I can't wait any longer,my baby.

its only a matter of time before I say goodbye to this blog.
I need to find time,space & something for me to live for.
This'll be my last entry for now you see.
Wish that I'd comeback soon enough.
In a case of higher spirits.
















This happy face is not everything that you know.

Thursday, February 08, 2007

Hey people.
Haven't been feeling myself lately. Really. I mean I'm alone,lonely but is that because I like to be alone? see, I haven't figured that out yet.Oh yeah & people I forgot to put up the photo of Sakina's gift that I made.

Soo here it is>>>



















Sweet right? But I just thought I could have done better with the illustration. But I think I did good on my first try.I did up the frame too by the way.
After this is like a poem I did up. Maybe I should start back on my writing. Maybe I'll be a lyricists one day but hey for now I'm just a plain writer. oh anyway this isn't about Mr. A haha I'm like sooooo over him.

Forbidden Love

Maybe I should drug myself to sleep tonight
So I can sleep tight
So I can escape from my pain & sorrows
These pains that’s making me hollow

I’d rather sleep than being awake,
Because realizing that you’re not by my side (every waking moment)
Is just as good as being dead

The dreams I had are just dreams
Its just mind games
I wish they were true
Cause then I would have you.

I feel like I’ve know you for a lifetime but
You don’t know a thing about me,
Somehow I fell in love with you
But how could that be?

Maybe it’s your pretty face,
Or your song that’s stuck in my head,
Or maybe it’s just your voice ringing in my ear,
A voice I’ve been longing to hear
But you’re nowhere near.

I’m lonely you know
I’m empty without you
Come close to me if you’re willing to let me have you
But then again what can I do?
Cause I’ve fallen for the impossible.

Maybe I should drug myself to sleep tonight
Maybe I should be overdosed
So I’ll never wake up
And realize my painful sorrows.
Cause I can’t live without you darling…
Forgive me cause I can’t bare to live with the truth…
God forbids love between me and you…

PS: if you know what I mean.

This saturday is fad's 100th days.sigh... i don't know if I can keep this blog anymore. Lets see If I can keep this up any longer.