Jalan raya( 1st Nov 2006)

From these pics I know u can tell there's a bunch of crazy people... which it is meant to be a blast... though we started pretty wrong with people being late butit was a happy end for some at least....

Couple of The Year 2006

24 October 2006 (1 Syawal 1427H)

First day of raya, it is celebrated with nice food i mean tonnes of it... laughter, tears of happiness & sadness, forgiveness.... I love my family... my grandmas & granddad, plus my friends... My cousins some are really easy for me to get along with...I love the dress i designed its purrrr-fect!!! It's soooo pretty or is it just me? hahaha..

Do u like my dress? I luuurrrrve it!

People say I look like a bride... hah! No boyfriend how to become a bride? Not even engaged! I ate lots today haha ketupat, lontong, sambal goreng almost everything on the hari raya food menu! Have to exercise more later:)Haven't even got the time to send all my raya cards or ask forgiveness from all my friends yet.To all of my friends I loooooveeee eeeeuuuuu...... forgive & forget k??? K la selamat Hari raya people:)

The cousins that's like only half of them!



My sis & me

My brothers & dad ( my dad looks like that cause he was unhappy...)
( my mum looks like that cause she was unhappy that my dad wore like that!...)
My cousins, uncle and grandparents

My mum & starry-eyed cousin


25th October (2 Syawal 1427 H)

On this day... things were as per normal, skipped an 8 o'clock class cause I woke up at 8 itself! But I went to school anyways to do more IWED... Then at 2pm when I was doing my assignment... I got an MSN instant msg saying that I lost one of my besties.... she has passed on. I can't stop thinking about her for a few days till I dreamt of her in my sleep knowing that she is OK over there. I know Allah will take care of her... But I never got the chance ask for her forgiveness or wish her a good Hari raya... But i'm glad that she got to celebrate at least one day of raya before Allah called her back home...

I hope she knows that i'm sorry if i'd ever hurt her... I will pray for her all the time... That she will be missed by all of us... Faddyna I love u my bestie.

Al -Fatihah


Siti Fadinah Bte Ridduan
Age: 17 +
(15 Dec 1988 - 25th October 2006)
You've been fun,you've been great girl! It was nice knowing u... I'll cherish all the times we share... and I'll miss your laughter the most...

Legally 18 finally!!! (15th October)

Time sure pass really fast and I am 18 already??? This means I am legal enough to be on my own motorbike soon...I hope. Sigh... 4 more days to raya... I am sooooo not ready. Ya Allah please forgive me for all my wrong doings in the past for I am never perfect .Aku redha ya allah, ikhlas dengan takdirmu tetapi ya allah tolonglah kuat kan iman hambamu ini untuk menghadapi segala dugaan mu dengan tenang ya allah... aku redha...

I am really upset Ramadhan will be over soon somebody please make the time stand still for a few more moments. I am happy to invite Syawal into my life for it is my prize and what i've won for all the obstacles I went through in Ramadhan. Alhamdulillah... I wish I am still breathing when the next Ramadhan arrives, I'll welcome it with open arms. Sigh somehow I miss that someone.. how I wish he knows...

Dila & I opening our gifts - Candid -

Loud fire sparklers

Lots of food! Murah rezeki tu!!!

Oh my birthday celebration was a blast!!!!I totally love it! From the food to the cake to the fire sparklers and to the prezzies thank you girls!!!! I love ya lots...Friends till the end k??? To my Singapore poly friends thanks for the sooooo cute notepad & adorable Garfield but somehow it brings a tinge of sadness to me cause it reminds me of my babies:( Yes Syaz I was close to continuing your tradition of crying on my birthday...

Garfielda.k.a Chomel/ Ali & me

Surprise celebration from SP friends ( To tell u the truth ,I am really surprised actually & touched that they remembered)

Syaz & I Vogue la tu konon haha!

18th birthday was real big for me cause for the first time in my life I got double birthday cakes,friends & family to celebrate it with on 2 different days(15 & 17)!!!


- Mini cuppycakes From Lovely Dila on OUR day- AND - SP friends gift-

This a video I made for The laughter crew people... This is our photo album... Hope you people love it... More photos are in it plus the latest from the birthday gathering!






Lastly to my little brother whose b-day is on the 16th, Happy birthday!!!Your 13 now... Jadi lah anak yang soleh dan contoh kepada adik2 yang lain... I know you won't read this but if you happen to stumble upon this I hope you know I do care for you even though we sometimes argue too much!!!

Alhamdulillah ya Allah u've made me a year older, a year wiser and hope I'll be much more feminine hehe.Thank u for all u've given me ya Allah I couldn't ask for anything more:)Thanx to everyone... It makes me feel that someone cares & knows I am alive:) ~ SheMan signing off

My letter to Ramadhan, came out with a poem in both english and malay language ... impressive huh? haha gonna miss Ramadhan when its gone ya know???

Official Legally 18th Birthday Invite

The Invite I made... Done it within hours. Proud of it:) With the help of Dila's color scheme!!!This is a private party & a secret one... sooo hush hush...This Ramadhan day will be my happiest:)

Lots of things has happened this past 2 weeks of Ramadhan... I broke my fast with my poly friends...They're soooo CRAZEEEE!!!!We laughed like non-stop. Assignments are coming in sooo fast~ 2 Assignments are due I think by the end of Week 4! I'm dying in my animation class ... But I'm trying to catch up... I broke fast with Aminah this week and she bought me an advance b-day present...It's a cute dress! Last week I got an outing with my siblings and my aunt & uncle. They are sooo nice they bought us Raya clothes. I am so grateful for having this kind of family.

Syukur ya Allah, kau telah memurahkan rezekiku dan memberiku apa yang aku mahukan dalam hidup. Padamu ya Allah aku berserah apa2 yang meracau di minda & hatiku utk kau tenangkan,Ya Allah lupakanlah aku pada dirinya ya allah. Subhanallah Alhamdulillah Astarghfirullah Allahuakhbar

Pics of me in my new dress haha... thank u Amy and a puzzle I did when I was soo bored




This here is a vid of my fave fave faaaaaaaaaaave sinetron opening title of " Hikmah". There's actually 'Hikmah 2 & 3' I heard! But Singapore is a bit behind as we're only on Hikmah season 1!!! But what the heck I LOOOOOOVE IT!

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

This is the month I'll feel the most happy but at the lowest points of my life. Yesterday I don't know why I cried so hard just because I didn't go for terawih. I could have gone by myself but... I want a friend or better if my mum could be there. I was so mad at everyone who just wants to sit at home and watch Singapore Idol. I mean Ramadhan only comes once a year... I'm even sadder or touched that my friend gets to terawih with her parents... For me NEVER once I get to do that...Nor do I know how to do terawih properly....I'm so sad on the inside... I miss my friends, I miss my cat, I miss everyone who has left me and I miss my grandparents
:( Whatever it is this Ramadhan I have to be strong for everyone & myself.

These are the things I created during the holidays and those are the things I keep myself busy with & my mind off everybody to keep myself sane...

A pretty red hearted(swarovski) brooch

A plain black bag I decorated requested by my mum's friend

Before After
A shoe I redecorate with an oriental touch

Lastly, I miss my baby ;(

End of day : Window shop with my girl pals & poly friends( I love you girls.We Rock!)

Time for Prezzies( look at dinna... haii hantu kek betol la!)

Aww... I know yeah how sweet...feeding Siraj the Chocolate Monster

Cake cutting ceremony

Blowing the candles ( I wonder what she wished for)

Syazzy's 18thBirthday cake ( Wow dah legal la tu!)

With my girls @ KFC ( can't u see how happy I am?)

Together with Mr. Fayumi(haha slalu kena bully)

31st August 2006

Hahaha this was certainly one of the happiest and very buzy day of my life... I had 3 occasions to go to... Teacher's day, Syazzy's birthday & Kenduri Tahlil. But hey life's great with my crazy girl pals around... TO : Syazzy

Happy, happy birthday!I doakan you panjang umur, murah rezeki dan
selalu berbahagia di sampingnye...I hope we can hang out more, it's been awhile and I miss you. So how's "Monster House"???

Now big problem... last minute Oscars is on the same day as my picnic... I must go to Oscars but I want to go picnic. The rest thinks it's not ehem..." happening" without me... what should I do? Cancel picnic?can't possibly do that I don't have the heart to... Well, Allah pls help me...

-Happy! Happy!-

YAY! Today's my last paper!!! I've finished my last paper! This means... FREEDOM! Haha no need to study anymore for the moment... yay! Lots of plans to continue on with this holiday!!!! PICNIC! A hush-hush plan... & MORE!!! Can't wait to get my meow-meow shoes! It's gonna be red !!!

Loneliness

Chomel & Ali ( my babies)

I'm all alone again...it's alright though. I can't wait to meet my girls( T-L-C Roxx) on the 8th. Missing them too much already and I think I'm missing my babies well I hope they're safe, I pray that they are well. And I'm missing him... him who'll never be mine.

Holidays next week, I'm keeping myself busy with my hobbies to forget him and try heal wounds that are still bleeding... Sigh I'm putting up photos of my babies and it makes me wanna cry so bad but I can't. Because crying is a weakness, a weakness. I'm programmed not to cry because someone brought me to be that way... someone brought me up to become a fighter... But how much longer must I fight? Cause I know I'll never surrender, but my heart is in sooo much pain and that I have to hide... hide ... hide. Watch me fade people...

Jera...

A song I've grown to LOVE!!! Well the song is actually how I am feeling right now...Well I don't wish to be in love again... So I'm Declaring My Independence today.
SINGLEHOOD-MY DECLARATION OF INDEPENDENCE

So enjoy "Jera" - Agnes Monica



Haha & to truly feel the song let's put up the lyrics...

Jera
Artist: Agnes Monica

Hitam bukan cirimu
Putih juga bukan cirimu
Semu ku melihatmu
Tak bercahaya Seperti memudar

Cinta aku mencinta
Kamu yang aku mau
Namun tak tepat waktu
Ku sudah jera dalam percintaan

Salam hangat untuk cintamu
Aku yang kandas dan patah hati
Biarlah orang memandang lama
Aku tak mau bercinta lagi
Engkau yang dulu pernah ku cinta
Namun terlanjur kau bersamanya
Dan ku terluka oleh cintanya
Kini kau hadir kusudah.. Jera

Shoes~

Here helping my girlfriend out with her shoe biz~

Anyone out there wanna buy customised mary-janes well Faddyna's selling them for 10 - 16 bucks & she'll design them for you, up to your liking but I like the cherry drawn shoes better but I've no pic of it~
I'll get mine in 2 weeks time and I've got cat drawings on it!!! YAY! Well if you wanna get yours you can e-mail her at: stretch_your_arms@hotmail.com
She's doing this for a limited time only, this biz will not go on forever it'll end on 15th September~ So hurry get yours soon...

PS: She provide only drawings! No Sequins! If you want customised sequin shoes...

Another of my girlfriend is selling customised mary-janes too but she does some sequined job for more info. you can visit her blog http://miszila.blogspot.com

Hello...

Hello...
So ya i ehem forgot my password or even my username haha... I know that's crazy! But hey let's start a new...A new day... The new me...(not yet) The Metamorphosis has only just begun and yet to be completed... If I am different after the holidays... Please try to accept me and adjust to the new me... Cause that's the real me... Whether u like it or don't... I am what I am