Everyday is a gift and hope that tomorrow is better than today.

Inshaa Allah.
Early in the morning the people made me reach my boiling point and went through screaming frenzy. Astarghfirullah. Give me the patience ya Allah. These children are so ill-mannered. Maybe it's children from the akhir zaman is really really rude.I pray that my children will be taught to only be good. Good to Allah, rasulullah and parents. Amin. It's a rarity these days to find good children with good values and manners.

Anyway, last Saturday on the 24th of August, Kyung Jin came to Singapore. I had a really good time bringing him around to places of attractions and my home. I think the best bit of the trip is meeting my eccentric mother. heheh. My mother is quite unique and humorous. Only that at times I find her rather annoying. Especially when she keeps bugging me about marriage. Nope. I'm not getting married yet. I'm not ready. Inshaa Allah one day when I am ready to make the biggest commitment of my life I will.

Maybe I am too picky. But at the same time, at times I think I am happy being alone and just want to spend my life adoring Allah and the prophet. They are like my lover that I cannot meet till the day I die. I want to see your face ya Allah and peace be upon you prophet Muhammad.

The funny thing is I think Kyung Jin could get along so well with my mother. There was so much laughter in the house. My mum told him that he doesn't "eat pictures" LOL. direct translation of a malay phrase it was so hilarious. It is to mean that he doesn't look good in pictures but he is good looking in person. I still remember the photo taking moments as if it was yesterday when he wanted to pretend to kiss my mother. That was too much! LOL.

Times like this when I think my mother is open and ready to accept me marrying someone of a different race. I would definitely NOT sacrifice my religion for any man. He has to convert to Islam on his own accord and will. That he must love the creator first before me. Inshaa Allah I will meet that kind of man. It is not that I don't like my own race but somehow I am more attracted to someone who is different from me. Oh Allah let me find him. please. Sooner or later, I can wait.

Oh and no, no I am not interested in Kyung Jin, LOL. He is like an older brother and he is going to get married soon. I am so happy for him. I wish him all the happiness in the world. I really want to go to his wedding ahhhh.... to experience a korean wedding is something I would like to see!

Such a long post after a long time, it is nice though :) Keep all this in my memory.

Hello

Hello, it's been awhile since I've blogged but I want to start again. I will update on my travel adventures to Ho Chi Minh City. These days, I think I need Allah the most. Please help me ya Allah. I can do this.Sometimes your tests get so tough, I do not know if I can overcome them. Push me Ya Allah. Help me. Only you can. My mind at times is really like a battlefield. Please let me build a defence so strong that will make it hard for them to penetrate. Amin

MERCHANT OF VENICE

Themes

1) Self love VS Interest

2) The Divinity of mercy

3) The cyclical patterns of hatred

Revision

Looking
1) Poem length : Shows how much a poem can say AND the mood of the poem
2) Divisions: How the poem is organised and how it progresses
3) Line length : syllable
4) Typographical features: italicization, capitalization

Reading
1) Registers: Informal to formal, abstract to concrete, simple to difficult
2) Syntax: repetition ( highlights the issue)
3) Word choice: Natural or unnatural
4) Imagery: Similes, metaphors, personification (Gives a clearer image of the poem and makes it more descriptive
5) End-stopped or run-on lines : End-stopped contribute to the sound effect, self sufficient and contained.
                                                   Run-on lines natural flow
6) Rhyme and rhythm : Sound effect for the poem. Organise poem's meaning
7) Sound: The articulation when reading the poem like imagery creates ideas & sensations clearer. Increase meaning

Listening
1) Voice: Personal? If it is, it tries to engage the readers primarily through its thoughts and emotions
2) Whom is it directed to? Itself, somebody else ( could be personal) , nobody( abstract truth or ideas) or reader (abstract truths or ideas)
3) Form of discourse:
    Expressive: Expresses thoughts and emotions ( become involved in the personality)
    Narrative: Tells a story ( interested in abstract ideas )
    Descriptive : describes ( may be value statement )
    Instructive: didactic in intent , spells out a clear message, truth
4) Themes : Love, Death, Time , Nature
5) Purposes: Good ( Tells good from bad, or raise a moral issues)
                     True ( Reveal truth or essence of something)
                      Beautiful ( To tell us something is beautiful )

Insyaallah I can PASS!!!! I must do well. Ya Allah please let me remember all these devices~ AMIN

Art Appreciation

Recently I enrolled in an art appreciation class as part of my University's elective module. Let me tell you how much I love it. I love it THIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS much!

It is so relaxing. I get to learn new skills, make new friends that I hardly would in other classes. Seriously this is fun! I am so into art now. I love looking at paintings and it really inspire me.

I'm looking at Jinki now, I seriously love him. Allah don't take him away from me too soon. I love him so much. I thank you Allah, if i don't have that man, I have this little guy that makes me happy everyday and he never changes. But I know I can't have this little baby for long. I will spend more time with him. So he knows he is very much loved. If he goes, let me meet him in Jannah. Ya Allah I know I'm not perfect or anywhere close enough to smell your paradise but Allah please... accept me. I know my brain is pretty haywire at times. But you know what's in me and my heart that is full of flaws. Please accept all of me.

Words I learnt for today

cede - To give up

idioms- style of an artist

fluke- a struck of good fortune. unexpected.

New words

Introspection~ Contemplation on your thoughts , desires

Crafty ~ Artsy person or sly

Beguiling ~ highly attractive OR dishonest

Goshhh that's why english is confusing it has both positive and negative connotations to it.

Today, I feel very down, discouraged and I wonder on my abilities. I doubt that I can be good at english. I seriously do, but at the same time I want to be fluent in Korean. It's difficult to juggle these two languages. I've learnt English a lot longer of course and fluent in it but my vocabulary is not vast. I have to learn more. I can absorb the information but how long can I retain them???

I love English I seriously do. But if I'm not good at it... what do I do? Work hard, yeah sure. I know what I should do. I think.

A long day

Don't want to think about you.But I just can't get you out of my mind. I try hard to forget but you keep coming back to me.

It's just too sad. My heart hurts. I don't understand you. I don't understand why. But I know I have to get over you somehow.

This song is perfect. It's how I feel every single day. I want to smile, I want to live. I wonder if you know I'm like this.

Booked for june

And so we already booked flights to Seoul. From the 4th of June to 15th of June.

Somehow tonight I feel the excitement and I can't wait to meet you.

We've grown so attached to each other, I think i'm slowly....

I don't want to say it. I don't want to have expectations.

Either way I will cry tears of happiness and tears of farewell.

Oh Allah, what am i doing is it right? Is this person the correct one? If this person is not. Ya Allah I hope you let me get over him and let me be strong.

Because : 이별이 뭔지 나는 몰라요~ huhu too much drama

Sigh~

You know today is one of those days where I am alone. I have tons of work to do but I just can't be bothered. But because tomorrow I want to go somewhere I will finish some today.

I hate when I'm alone. Because I get lonely. I'm lucky I can sometimes take a break from loneliness when I look at Jinki.

I hate it when I think of that person too. How can I be so weak?

This is only like the third month or so knowing him but he feels important to me.

Ramadhan Diary Day 6(6th of August 2011)

Today is my 3rd day of losing to that "friend of the month". My whole family missed sahur, we can't seem to wake up. My dad called me multiple times. My first time not waking up to phone calls. I must be dead asleep. I spent the afternoon shopping with Humaira and mother. Shopping for her hari raya clothes. We walked for hours and hours before we finally found the dress. She has a specific colour she was looking for:GREEN!

Then went out and had dinner with Mai.

I also voice chatted with him today, a lot of things happen, I think I'm slowly falling for him Ya Allah. What am I going to do? I don't even know if he feels the same way about me. He is funny, cute and kind. My gut feeling tells me he likes me too. But I don't know how can I confirm it? I don't want to be the only one feeling this way. He said "What do you want for your birthday?... me?"

And he promised me, he promised that he will stop smoking in 2 years. I don't know if I can trust him on this. But if he does this and really stick to it, it does say a lot. In can only mean, I mean a lot to him therefore he keeps the promise. My only prayer for him now is: Allah show him the right path. If you think that I can guide him to the right path please bring him closer to me, if not distance him from me. If you give him to me, I'll make sure I'll do a good job. If you don't i'm ready to ikhlas.

Ramadhan Diary Day 5 (4th of August 2011)

My 2nd day losing to "friend of the month". I thought I wasted time today but when I reflect on the things I did today...I completed or did a lot of work. One thing for sure is I've revised one of the modules I'm studying. The other one I've revised a little. This weekend will be spent for studying and work. I can be a real workaholic, once I start my engine it will be difficult to stop.

Ya Allah aku cemburu dengan adik lelaki aku yang tiap-tiap hari tanpa gagal pergi berterawih. Aku harap aku juga boleh berbuat demikian. Aku rasa urusan dunia terlalu banyak dan buatkan manusia sibuk,lalai dan leka dalam mengerjakan dan menghalusi ibadah mereka. Aku sedih ya Allah, bila masa ada di tangan kami juga kami tidak dapat melakukannya dengan sempurna kerana kami dibuai khayalan , rasa pemalas dan nafsu syaitan dalam diri kita. Ya Allah kuatkanlah imanku melawan syaitan dalam diri ini.

Today, I did cartwheels in front of my colleagues like WTH hahaha but whatever all thanks to the Mak Buyong who wanted to see it.

Yesterday I showed him a photo of my mum praying and then he asked me "Don't you pray?". Oh gosh I said I have because I didn't want to explain about that friend of the month thingy hahahah. He said "Oh~so fast" LOL. He asked me more about Ramadhan today and he knows that this month is important to me. It is funny how he said "But it will be a difficult month for me" EH? haha is it his lack of english skills or does he have any ideas in joining me? Alhamdulillah. Ya Allah bantulah dia ya Allah dapatkanlah aku dengan secara perlahan menarik diri nya untuk menerimaMU. Amin~

My favourite song for the month~

Ramadhan Diary Day 4

I was soooooo looking forward to do a good deed with mum today that is go for my first solat Tarawih for this Ramadhan. All of a sudden at around 6.00pm that friend of the month came TTTT Oh Allah I'll definitely go for it next week. Insyaallah. Let me live through this Ramadhan, ya Allah. The mum cooked Roti kirai today, it is super delicious^^ alhamdulillah.

He was the first to message me today at 8:56am Good morning~ Have a nice day!!!

You're too sweet you know that? Allah knows. Oh Allah guide him to the right path. -amin-

Every single day is meaningful with...

This cute baby of mine. Everyday we will be like this and share silent conversations only both of us understand. I have this special bond with him that no others have. Ya Allah how will I cope if you take him away? Maybe I will react the same way when Eeteuk died. I only pray to meet both of them in paradise. Amin~

Ramadhan Diary

Day 1 of Ramadhan (1st of August 2011)

I broke my fast at Unisim. First time ever, I broke my fast with strangers instead of family members. Well, hello new friends. New friends were made because of Ramadhan. Ramadhan is the only time total strangers can be related to each other in one way or another.

I taught him and he wished me " Happy Ramadhan!" ^^

Day 2 of Ramadhan (2nd of August 2011)

Again, broke fast with another set of new strangers. World is strange after all. And subhanallah I discovered I was praying in the right direction after all without even finding the kiblat with a compass. How amazing and blessed I felt. Amin~

And he said " Ramadhan day is very hard TT" it made me laugh as I thought ' As if you're fasting!' But in my heart i prayed insyaallah one day when Allah gives you hidayah you will.

Day 3 of Ramadhan ( 3rd of August 2011)

Finally broke my fast with my FAMILY. The mum cooked mee soto. yummy~ Though the air was a bit tensed. Alhamdulillah I get to be with my family today. Today was challenging, my night classes are taking its toll on me. With the fasting, teaching and night classes I feel terribly exhausted. Thank you Allah for giving me strength today. Allahuakbar.

Lies

Missing Korea---

Life has been hectic. The only reason I'm still working at that hell hole is my children. All my lovely children that I educate. I love them to pieces. Love them soooo much. Even if she doesn't like me I don't care because I am loved by many more.

This is the time where I feel like booking a flight, fly off and never come back.

What do I miss about Korea? People, place and food.

This picture of Namsan is beautiful. I remember taking this on the way up to the tower.

It is like a dream, what more with the cold weather and snow. Winter sonata all the way~

Next June please come fast~

Korean Study Lesson 1 - Introduction ( 소개합니다 )

저는 아티카고 22살 (입니다/ 이에요).

싱가폴에 살아요.

저는 수학하고 미술 선생님 (입니다/ 이에요).

저의 취미는 노래 부르기하고 춤 (입니다 / 이에요)

---입니다 = to be (is, are, was, were)

--- 이에요 (last consonant)= to be (is,are,was,were)

---예요 ( vowel ) = (is,are,was,were)

어휘 2

직업 ( occupation )

선생님 - Teacher

사무실 / 회사완 - office worker

여행사 직원 - Travel agent

주부- homemaker

의사- Doctor

간호사 - Nurse

비행기 조종사 - Pilot

My Korean Vocabulary List 1 People( 사람 )

This will help me in my quest of learning the language.

Boy - 소녀
Girl - 소년
Woman - 여자
Man -남자
Mother - 어머니
Father -아버지
Grandmother - 할머니
Grandfather - 할아버지
Aunt - 아주마 / 이모 / 숙모/ 아주머니
Uncle - 아저씨 /숙부
Younger Sister - 여동생
Younger Brother -남동생
Older sister - 언니 / 누나
Older brother -오빠/ 형
Eldest daughter or son - 장녀/ 장남
Niece / nephew - 조카
Cousin - 사촌 / 종형제

The beginning of a traveller. 나는 여행자입니다!!!

It's been 1 year 3 months and 2 weeks since I last updated. That is if I've calculated correctly.

Many things have changed. Life has changed. Work has changed and so have I.

The last post is about being happy at work. Hmm... now? Don't even want to think about it.

Everything has its ups and downs. Life works that way I guess.

I just thought I want to use this blog as a record of my memory of places I've been to. Recently I've been traveling around. This is something new that I never had the chance to do in the past due to circumstances. It is something I've grown to love. I've been blessed. Thank you Allah~

This blog will work as a passport to my memories as a traveller.

I've been to 2 countries in the year 2010:

Malaysia & South Korea.

You may think it's not a big deal but these 2 different places holds many fond memories and interesting discoveries.

So this entry will begin with a sneak peak of my holidays to Kuala Lumpur, Melacca City & Seoul.

Looks fun? I'll compile it as a video for both Syaz and I to look back on.

Melacca City with the kids

Seoul, Korea made 2010 the year I experienced snow and love Korea more.

From now on, this blog will be randomly updated. 2011.23.

Hopefully this year and age will bring me more happiness insyaallah.

FED UP

Dear Allah,

This is an open letter to you. Please ya Allah please help me. Please let that man just listen for once. I feel so trapped with the way he treats me ya Allah. His words only hurts me the whole time. He said that I've hurt him? I am tired... I am tired of being blame. And I only can blame myself for being a horrible person because I truly am. I am not perfect. I am rude. I know I am not suppose to fight back but I just can't stand it any longer. But from now I promise to keep my mouth shut. Ya Allah please protect me, please forgive me. All these things that are going on here is hurting me sooo much please ya allah make my faith stronger. The devils around me I can feel them they are sooo clear in wanting to steer me away & further away from you. I am still holding on to you & please don't let go cause I will do all I can and never let go. Because the only thing I want in the end is to meet u, Allah. Please ya Allah this journey is long and arduous, full of obstacles please let me come out victorious when you take me to be with you . Jadikanlah aku hamba yang ikhlas & bertaqwa. amin.

PS: Change of subject engagement is going to be my next topic ;) Leave a message & cheer me up :)