Ya Allah I am learning, I am really learning to be okay with all these. I really want to become better. I don't want to become bothered by him. or what he is doing or what is going on in his life. But its bad cause I keep missing him which I shouldn't after all the pain he put me through. My heart, is too generous for my own good. I have to learn to let go of people who hurts me all the time and one who doesn't feel the guilt. How come after I know all the bad things he had done, my heart still loves him???I shouldn't love him anymore. I should send him away because I am becoming sick because of this. Mentally and physically it isn't good for me.