I wonder if you think of me, like how I think about you. I know your answer would be no if I were to ask you straight up. I wonder if you miss me like how badly I am missing you. It's almost 3 weeks now. I seem to have run out of tears but at the same time, I feel like screaming because of this pain that I am hiding. I don't want to be for your attention. I don't even want to beg for you to be with me. I just miss you. period. I miss doing all those things for you. Do you even know why I worked so hard? Cause I wanted to be able to take care of you. Really take good care of you so you don't have to stress, or work so hard. I wanted you to be able to enjoy your life. I did everything that could get me to save more money. Like doing food delivery, starting this business, selling food. Because I am that serious about wanting you in my life. Wanting to be the best person for you.
Do you know why I hardly argue or fought back? Because if I do, it will only stresses you out, make you angrier than you already are. The fact that you are ill, I lose arguments for you, give in when I shouldn't because I didn't want to make you anymore angry and stressed cause it will affect your health. Even though I know I will be hurting in the end. Because I love you I always put you first.
Even though I haven't spoken to you in awhile, I know that this bond that we have is unbreakable and that if we were to see each other this connection will still be as strong, even though you met someone new. Because I know you trust me. That was also a weakness that I have that you took for granted. Honestly I want to cry and cry hard, I want to embrace you and cry.I know what you did was wrong. You did plan your move, when I think of it. You didnt think of how you would destroy me and break my heart so bad that now to love another is something i greatly fear. I am not sure if my heart will be able to open for another person like how it did for you.
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